I slammed the door, looked around me and began to smile sheepishly.

I twirled endlessly at the center of my room.

'whoa', I screamed aloud.
'You okay Beth? ', Jesse asked from downstairs frightened by the scream.
'I'm fine', I replied.

I was totally fine, obviously.
I was just happy because of what happened earlier between Chris and I.

I still don't know why I am happy and for Chris of all people in the world.

I began singing as I undressed and went to the shower.
I took my time in the shower and sang happily.

I got out put on my pyjamas and jumped on the bed.
I was still happy obviously.

I kept checking my phone to see if I had any messages or missed call from Chris.
Then, he called me.

Ok! I began to get nervous, then I took a deep breath and picked the call.

'Hello', I said at my end.
'Hello my princess, thanks for making my night', he said at his end.
'It's okay', I replied blushing.

We talked for hours and then he said,
'Goodnight my love, I love you', He said.
'Goodnight', I replied.

I was blushing from my end but I didn't want to tell him that I loved him because I didn't know what exactly I was feeling and for who.

I hung up first.
Then it dawned on me that I didn't know what I was actually doing with my love life.
I love someone else but he doesn't know and I haven't told him, on the other hand there is Chris, I'm feeling special because of him.

Then I looked up at the ceiling wondering what to do.
I fell asleep.

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