This isn't my typical thing, I usually write poetry. But today, I want you to know me, the me not many people know. My name is Alexandra, I'm the oldest of 6. I started writing a few months back to bring awareness to mental health, while not surprisingly, suffering from it myself. No matter what coping mechanism I try, it never does help, I've reached out for help, I went to the mental hospital and did as I was told. It helped, for a very, very short time. Maybe, I only did well because there was nothing to think about, there was just take your medicine, eat your meals, and attend group therapy. I suppose I was never really meant for the real world, and saying all this may make me sound childish. This was meant to be a writers app for stories, quotes and proms, yet here I am, just putting down what is on my mind. So I do apologize if anyone reads this and thinks "what a waste of time" or "what is this trash" and if you are still here reading, well thank you for continuing, you didn't have to but you did. I've been put on a lot of different medications, everything under the sun for depression but nothing worked, now they believe it is bipolar disorder. My mind won't stop going dark and I don't know what to do with myself so I try to keep myself busy and distracted in hopes it will keep me going. I...don't even know where I'm wanting to go with what I'm wroting right now...I'm sorry, I...I think I'll call it quits here, I wish everyone who reads this the best in their life, and don't worry, this isn't a suicide note...just a desperate attempt to avoid my own thoughts.

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