There were times I thought of giving up. I didn't know how to live. I chose this path now I'm back to square one.

Two years ago I tried getting out of my comfort zone. I wanted to do something, I wanted to be someone. Then I became something, I became someone. I was happy.

I met different kinds of people who thought me about the life I can live in. Some people influenced me to be something I was not. I experienced things I cannot imagine I would be doing. I was a cocoon that turned into a butterfly.

I created a world I could fit in, I made a new comfort zone of my own. A new box I could live in. I am attached to the place, the people, and the life I knew.

I didn't know that I made a box I couldn't get out once again.

I thought I know the reality I was in but I fooled myself. I let myself believed I was living but I was not. My so-called reality was only a fantasy I built. A place just like the real world but only my happy thoughts can be seen. I lived in my happy world just fine until reality hits me hard.

I awoke to an unimaginable world.

I know I had to go back to reality. If only I could live in this happy world one more day I thought, so I dragged it on for days, weeks, months that turned to year. Until my heart wears out. Until people in my happy world dries me out. Until the people I have been happy with pushes me out. Just tell me to stay I will turn a blind eye I wanted to say but they've already decided. Decided to let me go.

With no reason to stay, I walked out of the box leaving my happy self in a happy place I created. Let it be a good memory I say. I want to leave a good impression of myself.

Yet I left with tears, forcefully dragging myself out.

I am back in the real world I know.

My butterfly period is now over.
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