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simple student no one else!
we all may face the illusion of perfection somehow as we re growing up . though we all believe that we re perfectly imperfect , we tend to seek and struggle a lot to be perfect😑
as far as im concerned, i used to study harder seeking great marks, grades and many positive compliments from my parents , mates , friends and especially "the perfection illusion makers" as i called them , my teachers.
well, at first i used to get proud of myself once i got a compliment from them or flatter after getting goid marks and doing well in exams or whatever, but with time , i realized that it becomes like a long stressing and overwhelming journey for me to continue!! more pressure on me for beung a nerd or so called smart student. i got so much pressure and responsibility on my shoulder just because of trying abd struggling to meet my teachers expectations proving to them that im indeed a studious and nerd 😑it really sucks
it has been only 2 years since my attitude has started to change a bit toward this matter .cuz it really hurted me a lot physically , psychologically and even emotionally .i becsme more stressed , afraid not secure a all about how im gonna do next and keep thinking whether im gonna still be regarded as a good student in my teacgers eye!! and i havent been enjoying the moment , having fun and just seeking knowledge in the exact way my mates do ! not being expected to know more , to participate more , to talk more during the class nor struggling to show to my teachers that i do know stuffs about certain topics .
im just much more free now for reflecting a bit on how i used to think about myself and my school career .but im so happy for realizing that now and today 2021 💐🤩
i promise myself for now on , not to care at all about what my mates nor my teachers what will say about me or how they will evaluate my knowlege .
i jyst wanna be treated as an ordinary university student who is trying to have fun , enjoy the moment and jyst being simply imperfect❤❤❤
yes ...it is allowed to me to do so and it is my resolution for this year no matter what
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as far as im concerned, i used to study harder seeking great marks, grades and many positive compliments from my parents , mates , friends and especially "the perfection illusion makers" as i called them , my teachers.
well, at first i used to get proud of myself once i got a compliment from them or flatter after getting goid marks and doing well in exams or whatever, but with time , i realized that it becomes like a long stressing and overwhelming journey for me to continue!! more pressure on me for beung a nerd or so called smart student. i got so much pressure and responsibility on my shoulder just because of trying abd struggling to meet my teachers expectations proving to them that im indeed a studious and nerd 😑it really sucks
it has been only 2 years since my attitude has started to change a bit toward this matter .cuz it really hurted me a lot physically , psychologically and even emotionally .i becsme more stressed , afraid not secure a all about how im gonna do next and keep thinking whether im gonna still be regarded as a good student in my teacgers eye!! and i havent been enjoying the moment , having fun and just seeking knowledge in the exact way my mates do ! not being expected to know more , to participate more , to talk more during the class nor struggling to show to my teachers that i do know stuffs about certain topics .
im just much more free now for reflecting a bit on how i used to think about myself and my school career .but im so happy for realizing that now and today 2021 💐🤩
i promise myself for now on , not to care at all about what my mates nor my teachers what will say about me or how they will evaluate my knowlege .
i jyst wanna be treated as an ordinary university student who is trying to have fun , enjoy the moment and jyst being simply imperfect❤❤❤
yes ...it is allowed to me to do so and it is my resolution for this year no matter what
© All Rights Reserved
