Well first love always somehow gives butterfly in stomach. It happened to me too. Time went on and us being together news spread across the classes. Somehow it got to ears of teachers. They kept close eyes on us. It's not like we are doing anything wrong or illegal, so it didn't affected us. She started to come school almost regularly. Even with fever or with bad health.
I went to medical room to check up on her.
"If you are sick rest at home"
"Then will you not miss me?"
"I will but I will know that's for your best"
"So you will not miss me"
"That's not the point... I want to see you as healthy as you can be. It's not easy to see you in pain"
"Wow, so much care. I might drown in it"
"Seriously!"
I kissed her head and stood up.
"I am brought your lunch here. We will eat here"
"Oh so sweet, you are my prince"
"Then how can a prince see his princess in pain. Tell me where the miracle drug is i will fight the dragons and present it to you"
Her face got red and hid it under the sheets. This somehow triggered the evil side of me. I picked her up in princess carry pose.
"Oh lord show me the way to cure her. Show me and I will fight every trials you bring up to prove my worth"
"Stop it! That's embarassing. Put me down nowwwwww"
"Stop struggling so hard, or you might fall you know"
I gently placed her back on bed.
"Will you be with me no matter what?"
"If course you silly goose"
"If I become ugly?"
"Well i am still enchanted by your eyes sooo, just show me your eyes and i will be yours"
We both giggled and our eyes locked on each other. I placed one hand on her cheek and leaned in for kiss.
"You shouldn't be doing that you can get sick"
"So make sure you don't get sick so I won't get, anyway if I get sick it will be good"
"What?"
"I will be resting there" pointing at bed beside her.
"Till doctor is here, and here when he is not" pointing at her bed.
"Yeah so you got jokes"
"Want to see how much I can do"
"No don't "
"I made up my mind"
Well i faked having a sharp pain in stomach and an allergic reaction on skin. Yeah those who don't know one can fake hives on skin easily, i won't share how. Got bed to rest on and now lying in next bed to her.
"Told you"
"You are crazy"
"Anything for you, even fighting a dragon"
"Haha funny"
"Try me"
Doctor exits the room. Perfect timing, got up and got in her bed.
"What are you doing? If he comes and sees us?"
"Let them"
"Go away"
Heard noise of door opening. I jumped out and got in my bed. She started to laugh.
"I know you are here for her, man I wish I can experience young times again"
We both looking at doctor in shocked expression.
"Story of you two has already spread too far buddy"
Yeah, we were embarrassed to hear it out loud. I side glanced at her, she was red as tomato but also smiling. So cute, made my heart skip.
That day was something else.
Then came the outing day, one we all wait for. Us as a kids were super excited about it also, it meant whole day time with her. Singing in the bus with her and getting some jealousy glance. Well she is so cute that i thought I am out of her league but, how she accepted me meant whole world for me. Even in dreams I see her and future with her.
Our destination was a museum. We stuck at the back as we can have more fun. The whole day was like teasing her, running around with her, hugging her and some kisses. Just having best time of our life. The day nearly came to end.
"I might not be feeling well"
"What? Lean on me.."
She collapsed on the ground before I could reach. I carried her to teachers, they immediately called her home and ambulance. I was worried out of my mind. But as an Indian kid i can't follow her to the hospital. Here it is seen as sin to be in relationship and, if parents got the news it will be bad trouble for both of us. We might not ever be able to see each other again. I somehow managed myself for the future but, that came out to be....

Fast forward one month. She didn't returned to school. I kept asking teachers for information about her and they kept saying she was at hospital. In this one month I fell alone, just sitting in corner with foul mood. Games period came, for me it was same. I sat under the tree we used to sit.
"Hi"
I was bit surprised, it was voice of a grown man I never heard before.
"Hello sir"
There was also a woman beside her, by looks of it she was her wife. He sat down beside me. Somehow it felt like they were her parents.
"So this is the place you and my daughter spend time together, nice view and shade i know this sort of place can only be selected by her"
Tears rolled out of her mother's eyes. So they know about me. She must have told them no need to hide now.
"How is she?"
"Do you miss her?"
"Can't put it in words if I have to"
"Well i am glad she choose a good young man, when I heard i thought you were some punk. Talked to school staff to know about you and only good things came out"
"How is she?"
"Straight to the point, anyway before I tell you"
He handed me a diary
"Read it"
I opened it. It was handwriting of her. I breezed through all content. It was about the time we spend and how loved she felt all her emotions.
"Thanks for giving her the love we couldn't"
Tears rolled out of his eyes. I couldn't see the pain in them. And i got the answer of my question.
"I wish we had more time"
I dumped my face in arms and let myself cry out loud. I fainted after crying and found myself awake at medical room. Her parents were still beside me. Her mom leaned in and kissed my forehead.
"Thank you my son"
I somehow got up, saw the time it was almost school over time.
"I need to go home"
"We can drop you wait"
"No thanks i am fine, i can get there"
I don't want to worry them. My feets were staggering but somehow I managed. Luckily my parents were out that day. I let my emotions out.
She died on a high risk surgery procedure.

That's how I lost my first love. My dreams turned as source of pain. I started dreaming less and finally after a few years I lost the ability to dream.

few months later before leaving the place i visited her grave.
"Here are the flowers you like"
I placed the bouquet near her tombstone and walked away.
"I will miss you, I love you, watch over me and.... let's meet again"


This story is not writers creativity, some situations were modified as I want those moments to be with me only. Names are changed too for sake of privacy.
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