I am a loser in life. I lied and made people think i am successful. I had 18 backlogs in my engineering. I got my degree on time but in the process lost all my friends. I am mentally ill as well, I have schizophrenia. I lost the love of my life. I lied to her and misbehaved with her, made her think she was the problem. She left me and is now engaged to the person I hate. I wrote 2 books on her and all in vain. I did everything to get her back but there is nothing I could do. I lost all my friends due to this disease. I have no friends from my college and 1-2 good friends in total. People call me successful but at what cost. I am struggling and perhaps one day she'll be back