I guess i want solitude but what if I feel lonely..
i feel uneasy in crouded place,
and being alone for long time,
makes me depressed.
I want to live happily with my family,
but i want to make them proud of me.
I don't want to live forever with my family,
so i need to step out of my house.
this feeling of duality can't be explain.
So i decided in spite of running behind this and that,
let me focus on present ,
those things which I'm scared to do,
fears which I'm avoiding from years.
no way I can live happily if I keep them near,
so let's fight our fears.
seeing others is no use,
I want to live my dreams,
of making my parents proud of me.
so i am entering solitude,
even if I'm with my family,
I want to be focused more on my work.
so leaving all worries and fear,
I am working hard to live life.

© Isang