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I feel like I was cursed with being emotional. It feels like there’s a constant, one that's shown itself through the many periods of my life.

When I was younger, which wasn’t that long ago, having access to the internet meant you had access to many things. To everything, everything posted at the time.

The internet is constantly expanding and updating. New horrors await those up on a dimly-lit school night.

Those convinced they're of uninteresting origin, and so those who seek to become something more, who seek to fit in, but most of what really ruins people is hidden behind an age gap.

I met a man at 18 on an app made for those restless at night. Mom worked graveyard, so she wasn't home a lot.

I stayed up instead of falling asleep, because falling asleep felt like forfeiting a battle. I knew it wasn’t only my battle, and so I sought to find a soldier I could fight with.

His name is Landon. He’s gorgeous, and at first I felt as though he was way out of my league. I almost got brought out of the illusion. He was 29, and so the difference in our demeanor was true. I wasn’t sure how he was living,...