I know so much about love, because I've been hurt by it... to much actually,
But now I know so much about it, that I'm ready to experience it again.
I've been waiting a long time now and I'll keep on waiting.
Love is precious and most people don't realise it, because they got it easier than others, that's why I'll keep on waiting for it, because I know it's ganna be so much more... Amazing. I'm at a point of giving up though, because The slighty feeling of being happy feels like I'm changing and I'm not ever changing who I am, like being sad and alone is normal and anything other than that feels like I'm changing. I dont know if I need help or just more time, because with this I feel like im losing people faster than meeting new one's. I was a big extrovert, love language was physical touch and speach, now its just speach. I like being alone, but not lonely. I like talking to people, but I have spoken a word in so long that if I talk to much I start to mumble words, because my mouth hurts. I need help, but when I'm offered help I don't want it, bacause I'd rather be sad and know what i know, than to talk to someone and befine and not know what I know today. The edvice, the ups and downs of love, knowing when people lie and when they don't, being able to read someone body langauge instead of having to talk to me. To be honest I like being sad, but not at the same time. I want comfort but i don't want alot. I like who I am, but not who I was. I don't know what being told I love you and them meaning it.
I wish I could feel it again, the love everyone gets.

This is based on true story.

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