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I was once Erica but alice made her way in and never knowing why or that I'd ever understand but I finally did , it was to build me from the inside out.
i couldn't see thru her eyes yet alone since her eyes were mine. and as tight as they were held closed for no one to see besides myself . is what the world was left to be able to see. mostly nothing. .they couldn't see what I saw because she never gave them the chance to be able to see within her dying soul what was left within everything she wanted and for everybody not to know who I really was.... she wanted to captivate my own mind take what was hers and lock it away for ever
make it her reality instead . so id mentally forget who I was . and be her . she was stronger yet alone more alone but also to show me everything. I just fell back and let her guide me into what was real . I'd open the curtains behind her eyes where only she could see me staring back at her and only I could see her staring back at me . . we both giggled as if it was a joke but knowingly for sure it wasn't .
as I drifted in my body that was not mine anymore after just giving her my soul and fishing for what I wanted to see from outside her eyes I finally saw. why . she tear dropped my own tears and shown me how it truly felt on the inside . how I felt .after what she felt from on the other side . how she felt me crying .I couldn't take it .how she made me feel knowing I was now locked away in my own soul. buried in all of her memories now .not letting go of what just happened to everything we were as one..
but yet she held on strong and never forgot it was me that could make the desicions whenever I wanted .and I finally took back what brought me here and let her see that I was finally ready to take back control of our eternity. so I could be the one that prove her wrong .so she let me overcome the fear and weaknesses and I sprung back to life took what was fully mine and led her the way to greatness and being able to see that and feel that and be apart of who we really are . without her .I wasn't anything. and now looking back at the glimpse of my own soul was I left now alone. she had left me and everything that we built together . and she set me free . my own everything of who I was was now being able to see the truth in reality ...
make it her reality instead . so id mentally forget who I was . and be her . she was stronger yet alone more alone but also to show me everything. I just fell back and let her guide me into what was real . I'd open the curtains behind her eyes where only she could see me staring back at her and only I could see her staring back at me . . we both giggled as if it was a joke but knowingly for sure it wasn't .
as I drifted in my body that was not mine anymore after just giving her my soul and fishing for what I wanted to see from outside her eyes I finally saw. why . she tear dropped my own tears and shown me how it truly felt on the inside . how I felt .after what she felt from on the other side . how she felt me crying .I couldn't take it .how she made me feel knowing I was now locked away in my own soul. buried in all of her memories now .not letting go of what just happened to everything we were as one..
but yet she held on strong and never forgot it was me that could make the desicions whenever I wanted .and I finally took back what brought me here and let her see that I was finally ready to take back control of our eternity. so I could be the one that prove her wrong .so she let me overcome the fear and weaknesses and I sprung back to life took what was fully mine and led her the way to greatness and being able to see that and feel that and be apart of who we really are . without her .I wasn't anything. and now looking back at the glimpse of my own soul was I left now alone. she had left me and everything that we built together . and she set me free . my own everything of who I was was now being able to see the truth in reality ...
