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Love me on the darkest days
"I love you", he said and kissed her forehead. She was still upset about the news of the recent murders of her favourite neighbours. She was afraid to step out of home. The horror of those killings strangled her. He was worried, but left to work that day.
A couple of days passed. She never stepped out of her room.
That Friday night, he started packing their things. She was not ready to move an inch from her bed. He never uttered a word, but went near and sat next to her. She leaned on his shoulders. He sat hugging her for a while. He held her, looked at her face with eyes full of care and love, and asked, "Will you come with me?". She hugged him again, hurried her face on his chest for a couple of minutes, and then looked at his face with a heart full of emptiness and nodded yes.
They both came out of the house. He started locking and she was standing there staring at her neighbour's house.It was all dark with the police warning signs to restrict the area. He held her hands slowly, walked her to the car and helped her sit. Tears started flowing from her eyes. He looked at her for a minute, said nothing and put on her seatbelt. He then moved to the other side of the car, and got ready to drive. He sighed at her for a minute and started to drive.
It was all dark and through the roads admits the giant trees, it was all silence that prevailed among the two of them.
He moved the gear and she leaned towards his shoulders from her seat and slept for a while. Almost 4 hours passed and then woke up. He was driving without even his favourite playlist on. She got that he didn't want to disturb her. He looked at her and smiled a little. And there was a small smile back from her and she said, "I'm hungry". He asked her to check on the dashboard and he already had bought her favourite sandwich while she was asleep.
She couldn't smile more. It was quite a beautiful comfort to see how he tried to make things best for her while she never noticed a bit of him in the past 63 hours. She fed him a little and had the most of it.
She asked him where they were going while she was aware of the route already. He said that it was to the hilltop they visit every year.
She offered to drive the car for a few hours so he can sleep. He joked that he'd accept only if she accepts not to crash the car in some tree out of crying her eyes out . She punched him and asked him to stop the nearest light.
He slowed down and stopped the car. He settled comfortably on the seat, grabbing a pack of some chips. She turned the music. It was his favourite playlist. He immediately looked at her, she smiled and said, "Sleep now!" and started to drive. He slept like a baby for hours.
When he opened his eyes, he realised that they have already reached. She had stopped the car and was standing and staring at the beauty of the clouds. He got down, stretched his arms and his back a bit and stood next to her. She smiled at him and looked back at the clouds. He put his arms around her and stood there.
They parked the car at the parking lot and started walking. It was all cloudy and beautiful. Holding hands, they reached to their favourite grassland from where the view of the clouds could very well suit the description of heaven in most books.
They walked for a while. There were not many people at that place. They walked for a while and sat at one point.
He grabbed the bottle from his backpack, had some and gave her . She sipped it to the last drop and took a breath.
He hummed her favourite song. With no words for a while, she broke the silence with "Why does this happen?" . He asked , "What?".
She explained, " I know Mrs. Alex since we got married. She and Mr. Alex is this perfect couple that have always seen me like their daughter. They don't deserve to die because some cruel guy ran out of money and wanted to allegedly grab some from these innocent people, costing their whole life. Why the hell does these things happen?". Tears flowed from her eyes. He was able to feel her pain and anger. He said nothing. He wanted her to pour out everything she held in her heart. She continued.
"I feel bad about this world. I fear to live a good life in this terribly bitter world." , she said. He listened to every word. "Won't all these stop some day? Won't there be happiness and no bad stuffin our lives? I want a happy forever with you but I see terrible things happen like these and fear that these awful things will happen to us too".
"He waited for her to drain every pain and anger. She did and when she was exhausted, he started asked her, " Do you love me?".
"She looked at him confused with her swollen eyes. He asked again, "Do you love me?"
"Yes, but why are you asking this now?", she asked. He smiled and said, "I never doubt that you love me, still you tell me everytime. Whenever I feel upset over anything, the words you express keeps me alive."
"I've seen Mr. Alex and Mrs. Alex loved each other just the same way as we are. I've seen then from my childhood . I 've witnessed their love for each other since when they moved in to our neighborhood."
"Whenever I had a conversation with Mr.Alex, he used to tell me to strongly grab on to 2 things - Love and kindness. He was a very sweet man an so was Mrs. Alex. But you know what was the biggest thing he taught me? Love and kindness amidst chaos."
She smiled.
"Yes, he always insisted me to be sensitive and sensible. In particular, with every human we meet."
"Alex had a very unique way of seeing things. He treated every human as his very good friend. He talked to everyone he meets like he had known him for years. "
"He once told me that, everytime someone wrong a fellow human, it was because, he would have held a scar or pain that is destroying himself and is destroying others. And if someone wrongs you, and if you have a good heart, you 'll see the scar behind his cruel nature, heal him, talk to him and give him some love from the abundance you have. But if you'd like to go with your brain, you accept the pain, heal yourself and ignore the person. And if you use both, you heal your pain and also try to heal his. Not everyone could do it he says. And he always have used both. So as far as I know, if the murderer had given him a minute, Alex would have helped him get a life. But unforunate things happens."
"And so would things happen to us or may be not. Not a minute ahead is on our hands. But what we have now is perfectly ours. Yes, another terrible murderer might come after us. But what we are left with is choices. We either can learn from the old couple of how to get killed cruelly by a murderer or how to get killed after living a perfectly happy life. "
"Admist the misfortunes is the most need for love and kindness. It's time to step up and give more of our love like Mr & Mrs Alex . People see this extraordinary. But these are the human things in a horrific world. Just like the beautiful grassland and clouds in a world with volcanoes, we have beautiful humans with a good heart like you. "
"I won't ask you to stop crying. But I'll ask you to never stop being good. Never stop believing that the world is a good place to live in. We cannot change the world. But we always have the choice to what to focus on . I think my smart and brainy wife will choose to love me more even when I get all my hairs grey just when we reach the age of Mr &Mrs Alex. Wouldn't you? Wouldn't that be the best honour we do to those beautiful humans?."
"I love you more", she said and kissed his forehead. After a warm hug for a while, she grabbed his hands and pulled him to walk further . They moved on walking further to the beautiful sight of nature .
A couple of days passed. She never stepped out of her room.
That Friday night, he started packing their things. She was not ready to move an inch from her bed. He never uttered a word, but went near and sat next to her. She leaned on his shoulders. He sat hugging her for a while. He held her, looked at her face with eyes full of care and love, and asked, "Will you come with me?". She hugged him again, hurried her face on his chest for a couple of minutes, and then looked at his face with a heart full of emptiness and nodded yes.
They both came out of the house. He started locking and she was standing there staring at her neighbour's house.It was all dark with the police warning signs to restrict the area. He held her hands slowly, walked her to the car and helped her sit. Tears started flowing from her eyes. He looked at her for a minute, said nothing and put on her seatbelt. He then moved to the other side of the car, and got ready to drive. He sighed at her for a minute and started to drive.
It was all dark and through the roads admits the giant trees, it was all silence that prevailed among the two of them.
He moved the gear and she leaned towards his shoulders from her seat and slept for a while. Almost 4 hours passed and then woke up. He was driving without even his favourite playlist on. She got that he didn't want to disturb her. He looked at her and smiled a little. And there was a small smile back from her and she said, "I'm hungry". He asked her to check on the dashboard and he already had bought her favourite sandwich while she was asleep.
She couldn't smile more. It was quite a beautiful comfort to see how he tried to make things best for her while she never noticed a bit of him in the past 63 hours. She fed him a little and had the most of it.
She asked him where they were going while she was aware of the route already. He said that it was to the hilltop they visit every year.
She offered to drive the car for a few hours so he can sleep. He joked that he'd accept only if she accepts not to crash the car in some tree out of crying her eyes out . She punched him and asked him to stop the nearest light.
He slowed down and stopped the car. He settled comfortably on the seat, grabbing a pack of some chips. She turned the music. It was his favourite playlist. He immediately looked at her, she smiled and said, "Sleep now!" and started to drive. He slept like a baby for hours.
When he opened his eyes, he realised that they have already reached. She had stopped the car and was standing and staring at the beauty of the clouds. He got down, stretched his arms and his back a bit and stood next to her. She smiled at him and looked back at the clouds. He put his arms around her and stood there.
They parked the car at the parking lot and started walking. It was all cloudy and beautiful. Holding hands, they reached to their favourite grassland from where the view of the clouds could very well suit the description of heaven in most books.
They walked for a while. There were not many people at that place. They walked for a while and sat at one point.
He grabbed the bottle from his backpack, had some and gave her . She sipped it to the last drop and took a breath.
He hummed her favourite song. With no words for a while, she broke the silence with "Why does this happen?" . He asked , "What?".
She explained, " I know Mrs. Alex since we got married. She and Mr. Alex is this perfect couple that have always seen me like their daughter. They don't deserve to die because some cruel guy ran out of money and wanted to allegedly grab some from these innocent people, costing their whole life. Why the hell does these things happen?". Tears flowed from her eyes. He was able to feel her pain and anger. He said nothing. He wanted her to pour out everything she held in her heart. She continued.
"I feel bad about this world. I fear to live a good life in this terribly bitter world." , she said. He listened to every word. "Won't all these stop some day? Won't there be happiness and no bad stuffin our lives? I want a happy forever with you but I see terrible things happen like these and fear that these awful things will happen to us too".
"He waited for her to drain every pain and anger. She did and when she was exhausted, he started asked her, " Do you love me?".
"She looked at him confused with her swollen eyes. He asked again, "Do you love me?"
"Yes, but why are you asking this now?", she asked. He smiled and said, "I never doubt that you love me, still you tell me everytime. Whenever I feel upset over anything, the words you express keeps me alive."
"I've seen Mr. Alex and Mrs. Alex loved each other just the same way as we are. I've seen then from my childhood . I 've witnessed their love for each other since when they moved in to our neighborhood."
"Whenever I had a conversation with Mr.Alex, he used to tell me to strongly grab on to 2 things - Love and kindness. He was a very sweet man an so was Mrs. Alex. But you know what was the biggest thing he taught me? Love and kindness amidst chaos."
She smiled.
"Yes, he always insisted me to be sensitive and sensible. In particular, with every human we meet."
"Alex had a very unique way of seeing things. He treated every human as his very good friend. He talked to everyone he meets like he had known him for years. "
"He once told me that, everytime someone wrong a fellow human, it was because, he would have held a scar or pain that is destroying himself and is destroying others. And if someone wrongs you, and if you have a good heart, you 'll see the scar behind his cruel nature, heal him, talk to him and give him some love from the abundance you have. But if you'd like to go with your brain, you accept the pain, heal yourself and ignore the person. And if you use both, you heal your pain and also try to heal his. Not everyone could do it he says. And he always have used both. So as far as I know, if the murderer had given him a minute, Alex would have helped him get a life. But unforunate things happens."
"And so would things happen to us or may be not. Not a minute ahead is on our hands. But what we have now is perfectly ours. Yes, another terrible murderer might come after us. But what we are left with is choices. We either can learn from the old couple of how to get killed cruelly by a murderer or how to get killed after living a perfectly happy life. "
"Admist the misfortunes is the most need for love and kindness. It's time to step up and give more of our love like Mr & Mrs Alex . People see this extraordinary. But these are the human things in a horrific world. Just like the beautiful grassland and clouds in a world with volcanoes, we have beautiful humans with a good heart like you. "
"I won't ask you to stop crying. But I'll ask you to never stop being good. Never stop believing that the world is a good place to live in. We cannot change the world. But we always have the choice to what to focus on . I think my smart and brainy wife will choose to love me more even when I get all my hairs grey just when we reach the age of Mr &Mrs Alex. Wouldn't you? Wouldn't that be the best honour we do to those beautiful humans?."
"I love you more", she said and kissed his forehead. After a warm hug for a while, she grabbed his hands and pulled him to walk further . They moved on walking further to the beautiful sight of nature .
