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SINCE DAY ONE
The growing painful years~
As many trials as we face on a daily ,weekly and yearly basis....No one ever truly knows your core...The pain shaped you that made you grow in a garden with no light....A flower to bloom within the worst of circumstances is a truly beautiful thing.!!" I grew up with the kind of parents who never would water me,give me light or hope...I had to find a way to blossom or die...To say that I never felt loved by my parents, who birthed me && who were in my everyday life as a child would be a complete understatement!!" I longed for their love and to have them proud of me...But that day as a kid, was still sooo very far ahead of me...Years and years away still....I never could see it as a genuine love that they would give me so freely tho...My heart couldn't see it ... I Soo desperately wanted to be Daddy's girl && Mommy's babygirl ...
But yet again I never got that pleasure of that given love that every child automatically feels....Just as you breathe air without thinking of doing it with every inhlae...A parents love is the same kind of pure,dying,real love...
It just happens && you don't have to question it or think about it repeatedly!!"...You don't long for it.. It's just there and with every breath you breathe ~ it's the exact same thing......A parents love is supposed to fill your life with breathes...I would give my last breathe for each and everyone of my 3" amazing, beautiful, sweet, funny, smart, talented, brave, strong, kind, wonderful kids....No hesitation or reservation....For my kids I would lay down and die 10million painful,dreadful deaths repeatedly....My kids are my breathes and I am theirs....&& They don't even know (((just like it should be))) you don't stop threw out the days and think about the air that fills your lungs.. it's just a given... A parents love is the same thing ~ it's supposed to be just an automatic overwhelming love.. My heart pours to this very day with pride and LOVE && a complete feeling of being the most blessed mommy in the world..Their my babies....My cherished treasures.....I tell my kids as much as I possibly can every single day without fail
"I love you" ......They will never know anything less then abundance of mommys heart...It's a natural instinct to love and protect your baby... your child... I never had that gift given...
I longed for it tho.... I truly did......
Since day one,&& my first day breathe I took I was never gonna have a easy journey....My path was going to be harder.....and it surely was........
Coming Home ~
My parents had me very young && not just their age but their maturity...Their understanding of what it really means to be a mom && dad was lacking alot....My mom was 19years old when she got pregnant with me && my dad was 17years old..
I'm one of those people who See's life's twist and turns with appreciation.
My mom had me one month before she turned 20years old..I had my first born,my beautiful daughter Jalissa,my heart and soul at 19 && 19days later I turned 20years old..But there was a big difference,I was married at 18yrs old..
My grandma had that mommy intuition ((just as every good mommy does))lol...She went into my mom's bedroom and looking in her closet, she there found 2months worth of pads..My mom said yeah I'm pregnant but I was scared to tell you... My Dad && Mom grew up together in the same little...
As many trials as we face on a daily ,weekly and yearly basis....No one ever truly knows your core...The pain shaped you that made you grow in a garden with no light....A flower to bloom within the worst of circumstances is a truly beautiful thing.!!" I grew up with the kind of parents who never would water me,give me light or hope...I had to find a way to blossom or die...To say that I never felt loved by my parents, who birthed me && who were in my everyday life as a child would be a complete understatement!!" I longed for their love and to have them proud of me...But that day as a kid, was still sooo very far ahead of me...Years and years away still....I never could see it as a genuine love that they would give me so freely tho...My heart couldn't see it ... I Soo desperately wanted to be Daddy's girl && Mommy's babygirl ...
But yet again I never got that pleasure of that given love that every child automatically feels....Just as you breathe air without thinking of doing it with every inhlae...A parents love is the same kind of pure,dying,real love...
It just happens && you don't have to question it or think about it repeatedly!!"...You don't long for it.. It's just there and with every breath you breathe ~ it's the exact same thing......A parents love is supposed to fill your life with breathes...I would give my last breathe for each and everyone of my 3" amazing, beautiful, sweet, funny, smart, talented, brave, strong, kind, wonderful kids....No hesitation or reservation....For my kids I would lay down and die 10million painful,dreadful deaths repeatedly....My kids are my breathes and I am theirs....&& They don't even know (((just like it should be))) you don't stop threw out the days and think about the air that fills your lungs.. it's just a given... A parents love is the same thing ~ it's supposed to be just an automatic overwhelming love.. My heart pours to this very day with pride and LOVE && a complete feeling of being the most blessed mommy in the world..Their my babies....My cherished treasures.....I tell my kids as much as I possibly can every single day without fail
"I love you" ......They will never know anything less then abundance of mommys heart...It's a natural instinct to love and protect your baby... your child... I never had that gift given...
I longed for it tho.... I truly did......
Since day one,&& my first day breathe I took I was never gonna have a easy journey....My path was going to be harder.....and it surely was........
Coming Home ~
My parents had me very young && not just their age but their maturity...Their understanding of what it really means to be a mom && dad was lacking alot....My mom was 19years old when she got pregnant with me && my dad was 17years old..
I'm one of those people who See's life's twist and turns with appreciation.
My mom had me one month before she turned 20years old..I had my first born,my beautiful daughter Jalissa,my heart and soul at 19 && 19days later I turned 20years old..But there was a big difference,I was married at 18yrs old..
My grandma had that mommy intuition ((just as every good mommy does))lol...She went into my mom's bedroom and looking in her closet, she there found 2months worth of pads..My mom said yeah I'm pregnant but I was scared to tell you... My Dad && Mom grew up together in the same little...
