when I read your words last night, I thought how brave you were. Your words laid naked and bare on the page for all to see. I could relate to each painful experience your words conveyed.
I could hear the confusion you felt as you tried to do battle with the words in your head. Just know that you are not alone. We are your witnesses, to the moments of madness, that deep down you doubt are real.
You know how this ends,
He can not be saved, there is nothing inside him.
Do not spend time worrying about how he might feel, because he doesn't give a dam what his actions, his despicable words do to you.
Narcissistic people don't think or feel like the rest of us and they absolutely can't and don't want to be saved.
I'm sorry that nobody saved you when you needed it the most. That you feel alone in this world.
You do not deserve to be abused. Look deep inside yourself, look at your Daughter. Find the courage to break the cycle, show her she is worth saving.
There is life after this encounter with darkness.
Keep writing it helps keep you sane and always remember that you are right your gut feeling is screaming at you. You know this is wrong you said so yourself...
© cloudy blue