Hey!
don't be in a hurry
wait!
calm down....
take a deep breath..... ( Do it actually)

I know it's hard
i know it's painful, nothing is going according to you
i know you have a lots of problems, stress, anxiety, obstacles, depression.
i know there is no one who can understand you, no one does.
it's only you who knows exactly how ur feeling ryt now
i know it takes a lot from you to survive everyday. it is hard to get ignored by people and still smile everytime. it hurts when u fall asleep crying whole night. i know everyday is a battle for you, your not winning it but still everyday you are ready to fight. i know there is nobody who shows their love to you , nobody who helps you when you are in need. Everything is just going out of your hand. Nothing is like you imagine or want it to be. people break your heart and you can't do anything about it. Everyday you try your best to bring your life back to the track. your struggling and no one sees it. just because you don't tell them and be happy they think you are fine. Even though it seems to people you are living your dream life you know it is not like that. even though it seems to people that everything comes to you so easily, you know how much it takes of you. I know that you go to sleep so that you can escape from the reality. Even your family members are unaware of the battle your fighting from the outside world and that even inside you a battle between heart and mind is going on.
And you know what, it's completely fine...it is okay
You don't have to worry about things everytime... sometimes you just need to let things go out of your hand...you need to understand that people are temporary...
you have to remind yourself that you are strong!... congratulate yourself, you've come so far , that too even without anybody's help. it's okay if they don't understand you or why ur doing so
it's okay if they ignore you. Gems can only be recognised by jwellers... You are a gem...don't compare yourself to stones. You know, just when the caterpillar thought he would die, he became a butterfly.
Winning your everyday battle is not important dear. The mostly important thing is that you are STILL fighting. You ARE strong.
Sometimes our dear ones don't understand us and it's totally fine
we r humans we don't understand that easily...we are still learning... forgive them...or just go to them directly and hug them...tell them that it is not easy for you or you are not able to fight anymore...or you need them ryt now...or just simply tell them that you need there love. They'll understand FOR SURE.
No one's life is like they want it to be and that's okay. Live it...live every experience life throws on you...
if you feel like doing nothing...then it's completely fine... don't do it ....spend your whole day sleeping...relax yourself.....stop caring that much...
if you feel like doing nothing then that's okay, you can simply be...and just exist...
Don't go to bed to escape from reality... tell yourself every night that you did your best and you are proud of yourself
Look into the mirror and smile, laugh, pat your back that you have come so far.
For a while just leave your heart and mind aside, and do what your soul feels like doing
Go out... walk , cycle, play , exercise
or just do nothing
sit on a chair and admire your life that you have made it. You need to treat yourself with love care affection dear

Make mistakes...learn from them...or....it's okay if don't learn...make them again...it's okay if everyone is not happy from you...you are here to live your life and not to satisfy everyone

Just smile dear and Live your life the way you want to live....
😊



© Aparna