That pregnancy was the worst I started going into labor at four months along . I was in and out of the hospital constantly . Thank God Kent was laid off from his job . I was so glad of that but that's just months before other addiction takes my love away again . I was none the wiser we were happy and enjoying life and our family . Then one day I woke up and he said I wasn't looking good that we should go to the hospital and get checked I wasn't hurting or anything but I agreed . But first we stopped at the bank the the grocery store then went to Walmart to buy diapers and an outfit and a car seat for our newest little one. When we got to the hospital and signed in the orderly seemed to be freaking out about me and so was Kent telling me not to have the baby in the elevator on them I kept telling them that I wasn't having my baby I'm not in labor. But to my surprise when I got the maternity unit the nurse checked me and jump on my bed cover us with a sheet and yelled no time for prep we are having a baby with in fifteen minutes I had our third son Zadin . he was perfect and not even supposed to have lived because his kidneys were so swollen but he did healthy as a horse . He was perfect . He was sweet little and just a good baby with lots wrong with him . he turned out to have all kinds of things go wrong when he was little . like astma bad . He always got the worst of any sickness like epstien bar monno . when he got double phumonia he did not weez or cough he got a paper cut thatvwould not stop bleeding I had to take him to the ER to have the doctor there carterize it he out of no where got a bad bloody nose he fill both his hand and the floor board of my car . Strange I know but he did. His doctor hospitalized him for three weeks test him for every thing from being a free bleeder to aides and was fixing to send him to St Jude's but before she did she did a chest x-ray to find out he had double phnumonia . missed so much school he should of been way behind but since I had so much time with him I worked with him with work books for his age and grade when he'd finish them I would make more problems up . from early on he was in the hospital so much at one and a half two he'd tell them to put the IV in his right hand cause he's left handed . He would also help other kids relax in the lab by telling them jokes and such . The orderly from when he was born . worked at the hospital for years he always made a point to stop and visit with Zadin Everytime he was in the hospital . That was nice . but by the time Zadin was ten he became stronger healthier and could run and do all his brothers could . when he was just nine months old that when Kent quit coming home from work . He instead started hanging with the single guys or guys that left their wives at home and cheated on them getting drunk all night long and partying some times for days only to come home fight with me beat me up so he could leave again . kinda sucked . But that made it hard for me to work so I stayed because he paid our bills he sold weed to pay for his drinking and our sons needed one of us . When Zac was two I had to have the first part of my hisorectomy because my uterus was flipped up side down . and my back was so screwed up I was starting to go to the chiropractor and orthopedic doctors for it . And starting to have nerve problems . But I had to take care of me cause I was the one there for our boys . I'm the one that taught them how to fight play ball and be boys . Thank God for older brothers sad but true . finally I figured out if I took everything from him including my dads paintings and have the money to go and leave him standing thinking I was going home back up north and he knew I could. I'd get my husband back and it worked. For a while but then back at the same old thing . As Scotty got older he and his dad became so much alike they could not be around each other long or they were fighting . Well I found sacuary in my job my clients son he was basicly going through what I was . But in ninetyone I heard my dad was sick and alone in Texas so I had to prove I was better than them and I went and got him and took care of him for the last three years of his life .That's when me and my dad finally became father and daughter we bounded because he needed me and I did for him what I did best took care of people . I worked in nursing and took care of all disabilities from physical to mental illness I was a CNA , Level one med. aide , and Medtech I was trained in everything a LPN was except I had an Alzheimer's certifacation, autism, mentally challenged adults and children , insulin certified IV certified , and all I could give meds ,and shots . And I was good at my job . Also popular mom . The cub master , and also coach of the kids ball team, bartender on the weekends so my kids could have the best I could give them . plus help them with home work , and growing up . took them to all doctors appointments . I was second in state fifth in the country to be hired private duty or in company nursing . If I'd get bored with a job I'd put one application in and get calls from all over I never even heard of some companies that would call me . Kept myself all into my kids and work to keep my mind off being lonely most of the time I also help Kent's parents as they needed me . Also his little sister and her three kids . I was ok even if he just came around to fight with me . But when he quit drinking we moved to the bluff and we owned three houses and no one ever believed we faught like that out of our new friends . except those that were still around from then . Then life threw us another curve ball Scotty fell and broke his neck boy that was kinda scary. But after we get him to the trauma hospital at about three in the morning he ripped off the hard collar in strapped himself and walked the hospital floor for three hours . That doctor misread the x-rays sent him home with a soft collar and xanex . Scotty was ADHD you can't give him xanex they will make him hyper wound for sound . and he was supposed to just lay around for three weeks well luckily his best friend Tyler would come over after school and set with him . well a month later he was still hurting badly so I made him an appointment with the children's hospital just yo find out he should have been put in a halo but now they would have had to rebreak his neck . but all in all it healed perfect after all . But right before that Thadius climd a tree in our yard and fell out and landed less than a quarter in from his spine on a concrete parking block swelled his nerve ends in his back paralized himself for six hours . leave it to my boys . but they were close tight when you seen one they were all three there and they had their cousin Rhonda little bitty girl nine months younger then Zadin she thought she was a boy like them . but yet so tiny . they didn't cut her any slack for that but made her tougher . she played ball on their ball team she did everything they did she was their baby (brother )girl cousin . then Josh graduated Dustin turned sixteen we had a huge party for them everyone came my family from up north and all it was a heck of a turn out but Thadius's whole senior year he did Guard duty when he was still in school I signed my boy into the Air National Guards . he did seven month the that summer went to basic training during warrior week the last week of basic in fuu gas chamber gear in the gas chamber he fell over and stopped breathing three times . That was the end of his life dream he then at seventeen found out he had aortic insufficiency with sincopy that well broke his already broken heart . He was born with out the valve in his aorta that pumps the blood out of you heart he entered the military as an E3came out as E6 senior airman private first class he was the TI's TI and was honorabley discharged under medical conditions and watched his flight graduate from the plane home . He was devastated . But not for long he got home and was so missed he was happy to be home !

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