I had fallen in love with the idea of having someone who would always be there for me. And she just happened to be there for me most of my life. So yeah, I thought I had fallen in love with her.

But as the days go by it's becoming more and more clear that I was never in love with her. I just loved the idea of loving someone and so I latched onto the closest person, that's all.

That's all it was and all it ever will be.

I think I'm finally moving on, which is probably a good thing. I've been holding onto this silly fantasy and it's only brought me pain. It's about time that I let go and move on already.

I just wanted to get this written down, so that I can remind myself that I don't love her. I just loved the idea of being with someone. And it's about time that I get over it.

© Sam T. Parker