I didn't lose her miles away...
It's quite hard to explain how far it is...
I don't even know how deep it seems...
I can't even explain how painful it feels..

I called her but she wouldn't answer, thinking perhaps she was still annoyed...
I thought I could bring her back from within with my feelings and emotions..
But I couldn't...

I could and would pluck the stars for her.
Pick and fill them in a jar and give them to her so she wouldn't feel lonely.

I wanted to call out to her and say "Ukhtie I love you please come back..."


But she wouldn't budge in fact she isn't coming back...
Leaving the goodbyes unsaid...

Now these bitter insomnia pills remind me of her...

Archaic memories forcing ways in yet again...

I tried stopping back the pools of tears forcing their way out...

I wish I could send her a message by the wings of destiny and tell her..
"Ukhtie I miss you, I love you, I'm sorry"
© hujjah