Recap in the last part i said that my friends ex called me again after he finally stopped constantly calling. I said that gavin ghosted me once again and i was like super sad i was pathetic. I also said that i didn't love julian anymore. Well alot has changed again i thought i was done with all this but it has only gotten worse well kinda better its better worse ok. So as u guys dont know im only 12 so yes i know to young for all this but i know its more than a little crush someone said its love so that's what i go with alright. I recently started 7th grade actually tomorrow is my 2nd day at school. You guys know how middle or high school works switch classes 8 periods stuff like that. I had a feeling this would happen but then i thought julian was on house arrest and moved to Kentucky. Well i was wrong I was way off he has nothing to do with Jessica anymore he is not on house arrest and they didn't move. As i said i had a feeling this would happen and since they are still in Tiffin which is where i live he goes to my school mind u he is 13 but he is a grade behind which means he is in my grade alright i think you guys know where im going with this. Well he is in 2 of my classes its not great its not. He is in my 4th period class English class and my last period class 8th period reading class. Its been 3 days in school with him well I missed school so 4 days of school. The weird thing is he just so happened to miss school the same day i did and be back the next day also. My stomach is twirling so my stomach has been hurting 2 days cause of being nervous for everyday of school and seeing him. I keep looking at him i try to stop looking at him but i cant he just looks so depressed which makes me sad to see. He fell asleep in English class today he looks so cute and peaceful when hes sleeping. He isn't just a bad kid or anything he has a soft side iv seen that side i think today he helped a disabled kid. My best friends want me to give him a note to see how he feels bout me i said he already made his decision he said he didn't like me but its like people change i guess. Today i caught him staring at me after english class waiting for the bell to ring in a few seconds. Today i was gonna give him 2 bucks for a shaved ice they were selling them at school but we were not allowed to get out of our sit endless we were getting shaved ice. He literally talks to nobody at school he needs to make friends he talked today so hopefully he gets better at communication. Well he smiled today he started to laugh which is good i think hes just sad cause of Jessica hes got alot of stuff going on so i get it hes gonna be sad but it makes me sad to see him sad. So today i was at school freaked out again. I always am the worst at lunch i see him at lunch and cant stop starring at him and i freak out. So he kept looking at me like just little glances here and there then he said Selena which is my name he actually remembers my name he said hey selena...