Many times people have asked me why I haven't written and published my life story yet. I guess the truth is because I really don't see why and also because I know my life story may be as voluminous as the Holy Bible is.
And I am not sure that a lifetime will be enough to have every single detail of my life being put on paper.

I have come a long way, you know. And I've been through a lot. I know that I am not the only human being whose never had things easy and there are many other souls who are still going through a lot while we're talking and who will unfortunately continue to experience all kind of bad things.

If you are wondering about my own life experiences, I can name you a few:

The Bad Stuff

☆Depression
☆Anorexia
☆Suicidal thoughts & behaviors
☆Loneliness
☆Low self-esteem
☆Loss of Faith
☆Loss of Self
☆Life with no friends
☆Life with no Family

But , despite the bad stuff, I've also found those treasures:

♡God
♡Faith
♡Total trust in God's plans
♡Self-Love & Self-esteem
♡Love for Life
♡Love for others
♡Forgiveness
♡Gratitude
♡Peace
♡Patience
♡Compassion
♡Kindness
♡Humility
♡The will to be better everyday
♡The will to do better everyday
♡The will to see the good sides in every situations
♡The will to accept & love others with their flaws and imperfections
♡Life with the people who love me & care about me (Family & Friends)
♡Life with the people who share the same values as me
♡Love & Patience for animals & Plants
♡Love & Forgiveness for those who hurt me in the past
♡Total communion with nature
♡Life without material things & money

And last but not least:

THE COUNTLESS MIRACLES that I have seen for 40 years of existence.

God made me feel that HE cares about me, that HE Loves me more than anyone could ever love me

God made me Love Myself and discover my true potential and my reasons for being here on earth at this precise moment.

God made me accept my imperfections and forgive myself as He has countless times forgiven me.

I always compare my life story with Job's story.
Going trhough hardships and loosing loved ones never made Job doubt or reject God. He remained faithful to God and accepted everything that was falling upon him because he knew that being with God throughout the bad times was a better choice of life than having great moments without God.

I've spent many years seeking for the "Truth", doing research and comparing the scriptures, but my conclusion was the following.

God lives in ME. Not in the Holy Bible. Not in representations or paintings, sculptures or images.

As a child of God, I have a piece of God inside of me. It was up to me to make it show and shine troughout my actions and words or let it sink into the darkness that used to surround my soul.

I've chosen Life, Love and God.

And ever since I did, I've started gaining weight and I went from size zero to size 14. No more anorexia!!

I've also chased the darkness out of my life. Whenever I feel a bad thought coming around, I pray and I think only of Good & Beautiful things.

I've spent two full years locked in my room, seeing only my husband and my kids. Now, as soon as I wake up I go out in the garden and I pray. I take care of my kids, my plants and my cat.
I do spend most of my time outside, listening to the birds, looking at the trees, the sky, the clouds, the moon and the stars.

I also smile and laugh more.

Bye bye Depression!!

I also do spend less time on social medias. And that is a good thing.
No Addiction!!

God showed me the way and He saved me from myself and from the evil that was lurking my soul.

God helped me understand Life and my purposes on Earth.
I am not rich of earthly things.
I am rich of Love, Patience, Peace, Compassion, Humility, Kindness.

I am rich of God.

© YamiDel