"Notes to self" by Rapheal Vontique Murray

so many notes to self I don't think that you really learned all your lessons.
it is funny how quick we as a people play victim we do what ever to get to any point then turn on those who got us there in the first place being sick let you watch the false friends and true demons in our path next time you feel sick just look around you I pray for forgiveness as i am losing my ability to forgive as life feels awful short while im down but I can see I can see all the snakes in the grass I hear their hisses and i am aware of their presence as a time to change up and watch the devils hand play out draws near we will all fall but we always have the power to stand up do shit different no sleep just pain and memories of what was till its let go and changed may god always bless you and keep you all safe
You will never see it
Cause you just running part time to crooked
To run a mile in a straight line
You late and you out of place son standing in the waters you never thinking to swim in bending corners but never getting close to living any where cause your hustle game froze and every body knows we keep ten toes planted firmly in this earth been grounded since birth fighting this curse
In a broken temple you lost yourself heavy headed to your doom got you resting in your own shit laying in your tombI was ready to turn on myself
I been fighting this MF for years but he had me up against the ropes I was fighting so many other battles that he slip one in on me caught me in a weak moment SURPRISE Negus
Your not done with me you have to face it all Negus two piece me up and cost me my good name
I felt defeated in everything losing to him it was all in my mind but the repercussions of his actions only I can fix I came a long way and I'm not finished yet it will suck it up and keep doing my best I can't change how those hurt by my foolishness feel but still I apologise
My actions have forced you to cut me out of your life for good I understand and will forever miss and love you it's the hard time of my life but the good stuff keeps me pushing forward still so much work to do. A real one can feel the energy deep in the cells of the body steady looking for someone to latch on to shouting at the others who left you leaving a heavy pain in the body it's a heart break too many men in your inbox that's a heart break you thinking you know loyalty you spread out man you zoomed out set to stay an introvert forever cause you got trust issues and now you just don't let anyone fucks with you

I love you and don't you ever forget it Rapheal stop tripping and shine