Mommy, if you can see me right now, would you be happy or proud of me right now? If you would ask me right now how is life without you? I would say happy and sad, happy because there will be no more prohibitions on my doings, I can laugh, be happy and cry freely because this house was a prison with you I can't move freely, I am now healing, Mommy for what you've done these past several years.

I am making myself happy again through the help of poetry and some friends, it may take years too but I'm sure it's worth it in the end because you refuse to give me that happiness, my childhood mommy you scarred it, you left me with nothing, I am the better version of you because I am not like you, day by day I'm becoming happy and loud again, slowly I'm becoming the woman that I wanted to be without any traces of you.

This is the taste of freedom living without your curses every day, I'm living again with a smile on my face, no more pain because of you, I'm not playing innocent but I'm happier right now because no one will order me off what am I going to do, no one will dictate me, Mommy I'm your daughter, not a robot, no one can bear your narcissist moves mommy, I know this will not be easy but I'm taking baby steps to be happy once again.

You left and I'm here, you said before that I have no brain so this is dedicated to you, I hate to say this but that's karma, Mommy, I raised myself all these years and it's not you who raised me, I am better because of me, I forgive you already but I can't forget Mommy, you made this to me and I'm inspiring other people not killing them, I'm better than you and one day your harsh words will not anymore linger, I am completely healed and free.

Title credits: Michael

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