I wonder if wearing my heart on my sleeve is why I keep losing people. It sucks but I can't change it. I can't push the pain down. Exhausted from fake smiles.

I don't know how y'all stay ok when you may feel you aren't. Especially if its late at night and you cant sleep.

Or many that's why so many people do smile. They cope alone.

Sorry I can't.

So see my pain I guess. Don't want pity.

My question is how do you deal with it all? How do you appear positive so effectively?

Seems like most of humanity does this.

Tell me how y'all do it.

Cuz I can't even lie about it I wanna give up. Don't wanna be around anymore. I do so for others.

And only others.

I ain't enough for me to feel ok.