Since my childhood I was always a shy natured girl, didn't know much to explain neither to express.. My world revolved around my parents. Being the only child of my parents i was always a papa's girl.. Grew up to be a good student (as books were my very good friend).. I was all into a world of fantasy.. Then the phase came which made me realise that life is not at all a bed of roses. There are pricking thorns at every step. When i was at standard 8. My father took voluntary retirement from service. And it was decided that we will construct our own residence at my father's ancestral property. And accordingly the construction started, and we left our quarter and moved to a rented premise nearby. Not much time passed i somehow felt my father started remaining very much... As i was very much attached to my father it effected my very badly.. Every day there were arguments amongst my parents and it started effecting my studies as my boards were appearing.. Just before my hslc, we found out that my father was under the trap of a greedy Brooker and was under dept of around Rupess 35 lakhs. Since i was not that mature enough and my mother was a simple lady we both were helpless.. Day by day situation worsened.. Every day there were persons at our house asking for money abusing my dad.. And I couldn't do anything.. By this time i had completed my hslc, and has taken admission for hs. (Here i would like to mention the by then i had taken up tutions to bear my own education expenses) asi very well knew that to come out of my current situation i need to complete my education and establish myself.... But though I was from a good missionary school, i could not paceup with my mates. All took admission into good colleges and i had to settle down with simple one. Now the situation worsened more there were goons in our house with arms threatening to do the damage to me if money were not returned. Finally we decided to sell of our house.. Luckily by god's grace we came across a very humble person who agreed to help us and clear out our debts by purchasing our house.. Although that person helped us only 50 percent of the debt could be repayed.. The problems were still on. A was devastated.. My mom suffered mild stroke.. And i had to takeup a job along with my studies and tutions.. From 6pm till night 10 i engaged myself to run my family at the age of 18 years.. Then came the 2nd phase.. "The man" getting into this relationship was like a Fairy tale for me. We both were from class and beautiful love story bloomed.. We were the bestest example of ideal couple in our college and society. My love for him is next to worship... But since his financial condition was also not very sound. I sometimes also used to help him with his expenses.. After a long financial struggles.. Things were setting down now.. I was earning good. Completed my MBA along with my job. He also got a job.. And all were smooth.. Suddenly again there was a u turn again i lost my mother due to sudden brain stroke.. I broke down very badly this time.. Me and my father were left all alone.. Then after that within a year our marriage was fixed.. On 22nd feb 2014th we tied the knot after 15 years of courtship.. I was very happy to happy can say on top of the world.. As after lot of family opposition we got married.. Until 6 months of marriage it was a fairy tale... Then suddenly i started to feel that he has turned ignorant towards me.. I tried several ways to clarify things where was the problem... But could not.. Again there was an unwanted pressure surrounding me.. As i had to balance many things office, in-law my lonely father and me as well.. To the worse after one year i discovered that it wad the other women (a married lady) who stole the show... I got shattered totally devastated... Could not speakup as i had nobody except my dad and i did not want to loose him at any cost... Things worsened day by day toruture of in laws, mental abuse and then physical abuse.. Then somehow I gained currage and thought that as my dad is all alone if something happens to me who will look after him? I opened up everything to my dad.. And decided that I will no more bear with any worst anymore.. And left the house and came back.. But during the time due to all family pressure i quit my job.. During this hues I wished to experience the bliss of motherhood... When I saw my friends holding the hands of their little ones even my sister in law Who was younger to me.. I remember one when her child woke up from sleep and started crying and was about to fall from bed i rushed and took the baby up.. She snatched the child from my lap and told me that you stay away from my child.. When i expressed my desire to him of becoming a mother he told "ami purushotto harabo but tomake maa hote debo na". Today I am proudly nurturing 200 children of my School.. And m really very happy with themSo although I came back i was blank as what will i do ahead i was not that finacial sound to proceed with legal matters.. There was a time when thoughts rendred to quit my life... But the me in me stopped me and guided me to move on i joined a pre school as a centre co ordinator and this the place where I got back the zeal to live the life again... Although the struggle are still on.. But the small children of my School when i see then running around falling down and again getting up with a smile... I feel life has many more to explore... Why to sit back and cry... I say to myself "move on darling there are many more to explore" my ams always hug me.