CHAPTER ONE
"Assalam-u-Alaekum",I knelt down to greet my parents
"Walay Kum Salam",they replied me
"How are you?"
"All good"
I sat close to my dad
"Welcome home my daughter"my dad smiled at me
"I love you Dad"
"I love you daughter"
"Mum,is there food?"
"yes there is..go find it in the kitchen"
"you have tried with your Islamic studies and we are proud of you"my mum said
"she really mastered the QUR'AN at 16 years of age and she impressed the IMAM which is me so I should be proud of her and also for me realizing that pampering her was never a mistake"my dad added
I smiled
and laughed
and smiled
and giggled
and laughed again
I was just so happy
"uh dad",I said
"yes,dear"
"where had they all gone to?"
"well,your sisters and brother are outside"
"ok
let me go see them"
"No,come my child..you are different from them and you should not associate with them"he said calmly
"but dad,it isn't as if they turned to christians.they are still Muslims and devoted Muslims not Christia...."
"Mariam!!!!!",my dad yelled
I vibrated
"If you call christians again,i will forget you are the precious of them all.And again"he paused and continued"if they should convert,they may still live in this house but disowned but for you",he paused,sighed and continued"if you dare try it,one)I will forget you are my child not just my child but the precious of them all in my sight.two)I will disown you..three)I will throw you out.four)you will be dead to us and the entire households..five)I will make and announce you dead to my Life and the lives of others",he concluded
I forgot my dad was temperamental
tears were in my eyes..
I needed them not to rush down
all these five commandments for only me
why me???
the tears finally rushed down
I sulked
TERRORS!!!!!!!
the words of him being said to me kept on coming to me and they tormented me as they formed memory in me
each and every words he said to me
he meant them
he was a man of his words
he never jokes with his words
I ran to my room

CHAPTER TWO
"Mariam",Zayeenab knocked on my door
She was the eldest of us all
let's just say,the first born
"I don't wanna speak with anyone",still in tears,I said
"Hmm.my baby doesn't wanna speak with super hero.and she forgot that her super hero will always be there for her and will always embrace and comfort her.. please,open up"She said
I went and opened the lock of my door
she came in but I could no longer hide my tears so before she could lock the door,I leaned on her and cried
I cried heavily
"let's sit on the bed first",she took me to the bed and we sat down
"now,take a deep breath in"she said
"he......he....he said that...he ....he doesn't even know that...he said that..."I leaned on her shoulder and cried
"I heard all of them"
"you don't understand"I stood up
"he said that..."
"that if you convert,he will disown you and make and announce you dead right??",she interrupted me
I was mute
I sat down close to her
"yeah",she held my cheeks and continued
"I heard all of them.all."she said
I hugged her and cried
"he does not know how he hurt me by those words..he ...he ...he doesn't know that by that,he had doubted me..he doesn't that I can never be a Christian or does he not know?",I s
asked rhetorically
"why did he say such things to me?" I sobbed
"now,look at me"
I refused
"look at me,dear"
I obeyed
"now,take a deep breath in"
I obeyed
"breathe out now"
I obeyed
"so are you feeling better now?"she asked
I looked at her
"ok"
"do it again"
I obeyed
then,I was feeling better
"won't my baby cry again?"
I looked at her
"yeah.won't you cry again?"
I looked at her
"just kidding"she smiled
she held my cheeks,kissed my forehead and hugged me
"so,are we good to go now?"
I nodded
"thanks sis.i wonder what I would have done without you"
"shush"she said to me
"those tears are too precious",she wiped my tears
"it's meant to be shared in Happy times.not said occasions.so you should smile in tears not cry at all... remember this:
if people do things that you and they know will bring down your self esteem,or bring tears into your beautiful face, don't prove to them that you are weak although you know you are weak
but look up to ALLAH who will strengthen you when you are weak and tell him everything about you
so
never be afraid of TERRORS of life either caused by people or life itself or caused by you yourself
I may not live with you soon
I will never be here forever as it is, next week is my wedding but keep to my words and don't ever forget them too soon..
if you don't remember anyone, remember these ones I tell you today
and never cry
prove to them all that you are strong
prove to them that my lil sister is of great self esteem and you have self dignity
and you have Allah by your side.always",she concluded
I hugged her
tears came
she wiped them away
"please do not forget my words too soon baby"
"now,let me put you to sleep"
I laid down
she covered me with the blanket
she sat on the bed facing me and put her hand on my head,patting me to sleep
she kissed me and bid me good night
as she was about to leave,I called her
"anything for you sis"
"I love you",I said
"I love you too"
"now go to sleep cuz tomorrow is a busy day"
she kissed me on my forehead and left, leaving the door behind her closed.
CHAPTER THREE
"how are we gonna do about this?"Rahimot,my Friend said
"you are the one who is gonna do it.not me .and please,lemme be" I said
and left
she went after me
"Please let me be.stop following me"
she left
I began to hear a still voice
I looked around me
none was there
only me
the voice was a thin voice
calm
innocent
too low
that if it were to be a human being speaking,the listener will have to strain his or her voice just to listen to the speaker
I kept on hearing the voice which was like that of a whisper
none was there
none was close
"Am I running mad?" I said to myself
then,I began to recite AL-FATIHA
the voice was getting more deeper
I spoke other QUR'AN recitation but all to no avail
it was getting more deeper
I saw someone pass by
I wanted to call out for help
but my voice was gone
and lost
I was already feeling dizzy

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