My mind is quiet tonight
It's very unusual
I should be content right?
But, I feel abnormal!

It's what I had wanted for so long
I finally achieved it!
Then why do I feel empty and wrong?
Embers glowing deep red on my cigarette

You're so used to them, they say
That's not true! my protest frail
Don't make an excuse, let them buried lay
Are they right? or am I in denial

I know sooner or later they'll return
It's just a matter of time
I inhale a deep smoke, watching it burn
Seizing the peaceful opportunity, ain't a crime

Cold lonely nights, me and the universe
I long and miss ones I have lost
I thought I could make it without, I shout out a curse
I feel them coming back, chaotic in my head, being without them felt worst

#mentalhealthawareness
#depressionandanxiety

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