When I was 19 and found out I was pregnant with my first son in October on the 20th of 2007. The same year I graduated from High school. I used to live in a 3 apartment house with my mother at the time. But before I got pregnant, we used to have a different landlord, but he sold the house without us knowing about it and then we got new a landlord that moved into the apartment house with his fiance, her two teenage daughters. They lived down stairs and her ex-husband that live upstairs next to me. Anyways, our new landlord wanted to get with me and he was probably like 54 in age. But before that started happening, his fiance ex husband tried to get with me the same day we met on the porch. I was on the porch listening to 3 doors down when they approached me to tell me that they are my new landlords. John and his fiance Sandy had to go get more of their stuff. Mike her ex husband stayed behind and he was probably like 45 in age. He was still on the porch with me and kept trying to talk to me when I was listening to music, so I put my C D Walkman down. Mike wanted me to sit by him on the porch steps. I sat down, but not close enough to him. He started asking me questions about myself and I told him that I love to draw and take walks. Then he got closer to me and started asking me about sexual stuff. I moved away from him and got more uncomfortable as I told him no to his questions. Then he ask if I have any friends that are single and I said no. Then after awhile Mike got up and started walking inside John's and Sandy's place. He wanted to show me something and I had a bad feeling that he was up to something, but I followed him inside. When he walked into the living room, he started undoing his pants. I started to walk away and Mike said. "You haven't seen him yet!" As I was walking out the door I said. "I don't want to!" I ran upstairs to my place. I was kinda seeing someone, but he raped me that one morning and I didn't want to see him anymore. So when Dan told me he will be back later and left, I didn't want to see him again when I told him no that morning when he raped me. So I want over to Mike's and chilled to wait for Dan to leave my place when he came back over that night. I was going to stay the night at Mike's, but I didn't feel comfortable to stay there, so I took my stuff back over to my place and Dan was still there. He was talking to my mom. I told him that I don't want him and he got mad. He asked my mom if she would have sex with him instead and she said no as I walked out the door to hang with Mike After awhile Dan left and I was scared to stay at home, but I was heading back over anyways. John came upstairs and Mike told him that I was scared to be at home and think that I should stay the night with him or he would do something stupid to himself if I don't. But John said. "No she can stay with me and Sandy." I told them I'll be ok, but he told me to go with him. I wished I stayed at home that night. John took me to the living room and got me a blanket and pillow. I lay down on the couch and was going to go to sleep, but he wanted to talk. He wanted to know more about me. I told him that I love to draw and I found out he does too and shown me some of his work. I was like sweet, someone else can teach me better at drawing. I hate myself for telling him that I don't know what a father is like. When I told him that, he got off the couch and sat down in a rocking chair. He told me to come over to show me what it feels like to have a father. John wanted me to sit on his lap and I was scared because what my father has done to me, but I sat down. He was rocking and told me that is how it feels like to have a father. After awhile I got up and lay down on the couch and covered myself up. John sat back down and his fiance came into the living room to let him she is going to bed. John told her he will be there in a few and he already told her that I was staying the night because what happened. When she left the room, John got on top of me and said. "How about you and I?" I told him no and that he already has someone that he wanted to marry, but that didn't stop him from wanting to be with me. He said "I don't want someone who is fat, I want someone who is your size." I still told him no when he was still laying on top of me. John started to lift up my shirt and started kissing my belly and going up as he was playing with my boob. I pushed his head and hand away from me. He fixed his juck in his pants and lay it on me and lay back down on me and said. "This can be all of yours." I told him no again and after awhile he finally left me alone through the night. In the morning I left before anyone got up. Ever since I told him no, my life was horrible living there. I met My oldest son's father and end up getting pregnant. When John found out, that's when my nightmare started. He turned off our hot water heater and our gas. He was trying to run up our electric too. The rent used to be 450 and then he had it to 600. I want to counseling and they only laugh at me. I was diry and smelled bad too and that could be why he laughed at me for telling him everything about my landlord wanting me and what he has been doing. So I stopped going to counseling. When I had my oldest son in June on the 26th of 2008. John called CYS on me because I'm too young to be a mother at 20. He had to turned on the hot water heater and gas because I had my son. He bands on his drums underneath my room so that I can't have my son sleep. He had a camera in the hallway, so he can see who comes and goes and listen into our conversations. Winter came and I was not allowed to turn up the heat for us and my son got sick. I told John off and his fiance told me that she can kick me out. I told her I don't give a shit! I have a friend who I can live with and she shut the fuck up afterwards because she knows she needs my rent money every month. Then I got a different place that will accept animals and finally moved out of that hell hole. Then I found out John is on Megan's Law just like my father is now on it since 2017. This is somethings about my life and people want me to get over it! How can I? I been hurt in many different ways and people think that it's so easy to just let go and move on! I have so much more to write about and I could make a story about my life.
© Charlotte B.