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VALENTINE'S DAY
First of all, I would like to greet all of you here a HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY everyone!!! :')
#LetsSpreadLove <3

Let me ask you Guys, for you, what is Valentine's Day? To whom will you love to celebrate it with? :')

You can celebrate the Valentine's Day to anyone. Including your Family,like with your Mom and Dad,Grandpa and Grandma, or even with your brothers and sisters. Yes it is! Valentine's isn't just about for the two people who's inlove but it's for everybody,in short, it is for everyone.

This Valentine's Day, this is also the day that I lost my Father. :'( February 14, year 2019. It's been 4years since he died,but the pain is still here. It's his birth month too,February 21. He never had the chance to be a father to me. I grew up without him by my side. All my life I've been longing for a father's love and care. Just like everyone else. But for some reason, I still love him deeply. First reason is that, he's still my father, and inspite of him being irresponsible, still, I owe my life to him. Without him,I will never have this life of mine right now. I never count all the mistakes or him being irresposible when it comes to our needs like, financial, because he has no work. I never hated him because of being drank everyday, because I chose to understand the reason why he's like that. Eventhough he's not that really responsible father like others have, providing the financial needs of the family and that any needs a family could ask, I'm still thankful that he's my father.

Wanna know why?
My mother told me when I was young, my father will get me to take a bath even it takes ten times a day, just to make sure that I'll never get such germs in my body. Just to keep me clean. When I'm already 15 years old, I will go to their house, escape from my Grandma's home because I miss them, he will defend me against my mother if my mother will get angry at me. Same as, if there's anyone who would say something bad about me, he'll fight for me,like literally fight for me. When it comes to my talents, he's the one who's boasting and keep on saying as if he's very proud of me!

So you see? I will never think of him as a bad father just because he doesn't meet our needs. That time maybe he just needed a little push to become responsible enough when it comes to that thing, but no one did that push. :'( I just chose to look at him and appreciate him at his best more than to blame him for being imperfect.

Pa, are you happy wherever you are right now? Please be happy, no one will judge you now. I miss you Papa... :') Happy Valentine's Day there in heaven... :') I Love You So Much! <3
© Eamnevuj23