The sun might be shining ,but it's stormy each and everyday of my life.. .What crime have I committed ?,who have I offended ?,she asked herself over and over , but no one answered . it seems as if life itself had grudge against her . I'm fed up ,why is it that every wicked thing is for me , day in day out I cry with no one to comfort me ,I get drunk ,take drugs but still this pain won't go away . Why should I care about ,respect this miserable life I live ,all the men I meet pretend to love me ,sleep with me then bad mouth me ,why do I hold on to this life .Though I'm breathing ,inside I'm dead ,this is too much for one person ,I have to do myself a favour and end it once and for all , it's not like anyone Love's me enough to mourn or miss me even if I die ,I don't have a reason to live ,oh what a useless life .I searched the whole house for detergents ,pills ,anything that would end this useless life of mine ,so I found a few pills and they wouldn't do the job ,so I quickly ran to the stop shop to get rat poison. Little did I know that the day of my death was the beginning of my life .I ran without looking and a car almost knocked me down ( inside I got furious that it missed me for dying was the only thing I wanted so bad) , The driver jumped out of the car screaming ,(lady are you crazy ?do you have death wish or what ), I quickly responded , oh yes that's what I'm after death ,louder I got ,why did you stop ,you could have just nocked me and saved me the walk to the shop . Oh my God he said ,followed by a heavy breath. Closer to me he got ,with a sweet voice ,he asked ,why would a beautiful lady with a bright future want to die ,clearly in mind I wondered who he was talking about . I took a step and started walking towards the shop and I had a tap on my shoulder ,miss he said ,can I steal a moment of your time ,I stopped and gave him an ear ,he started talking the more he talked the more he annoyed me ,talking about me being loved unconditionally ,my word ,me loved ,do you know my life ,misery ,sorrow and pain is my daily bread , rejection and loneliness my life partner .crying has become my friend so I don't know what life ,joy and love you're talking about .At that moment my life changed .He began to tell about something bigger than I could imagine ,I was resurrected ,Jesus he said ,all you have to do is ask ,call and He will answer ,that all that has been happening to make is in the past and all I had to do was to take Jesus as my Lord and Saviour and my life would not be changed but transformed , I tell you ,that was the beginning of my life ,as time went by I became happy ,peace full ,I would be alone but never lonely ,my lost childhood ,the tears of many years ,the pains ,sorrow were wiped away ad if they never happened .I had no money but still didn't worry for the Grace of God had given me something more than wealth ,I was given life ,true happiness . The tables had changed I was made new through the blood of Jesus and from there onwards life was worth living . Thanks be to God who in His mercy ,kindness and love gave me a purpose to live