The itchy feeling of the thoughts running through my head.
What was I thinking? trying to convince myself I was not feeling like it. I tried many times to keep my eyes closed but my mind was so wide. I thought I can stop thinking while I didn't move with this feeling of the itchy burden of the feelings I hide that I cannot complain about that even through words is just few words.
What that strange feelings all about?I didn't see the cause. what if you didn't see the cause?can it blind you forever or will you just hold your blindness? because you already had cause in what it seems like a little cause to others. It's an feeling where I wanted to scream with the pain but I couldn't because I'm finding the cause.
What if it's just those little bugs where into me again?that I keep tossing and throw myself not to feel the gap between me and feeling I feel that I don't know where it came from.
I honestly don't know what will happen to me but I know that if I keep losing a blood it's like losing myself in a choices of words to say because of the few little words I say. I rethink everday how can I be normal to those itchy feelings I had within my days that I shrug it off but I end up hurting my own. why am I writing such things like this?am I just really ridiculous?. All I wanted was to understand myself just like you but with all of the thoughts flooding in my brain itch the feelings inside me.
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