It's been a year father since I started a new journey with you, My Father God. my life has changed, not my environment not the people nor the circumstances I deal with on a daily. since I could remember I have had many many trials and although I wasn't in the same place then that I am now, all these trials and tests and trials that I went on without you my father you always looked out for me, looking back father as I see you open my eyes, I can see the fearlessness you instilled in me, having the gift of sight the spirit's always presented themselves to me and because I wasn't scared of them they started to bother my children and they couldn't understand what they were seeing or experiencing, and why was I so authoritative with those spirits and they couldn't be one they would see things they would come shaking and lay down with me and they said they would feel immediate comfort why wasn't I afraid? father you gave me the spirit of a warrior every tough experience I have been through and yet to go through is because you have been training me, most people look at my life and say what the heck so much chaos but it's not it's what I was made for constant battle constant practice of Faith through all of it. through every battle I experienced new revelation, new strength, new wisdom, new spiritual MUSCLES!!! Even even memories that are coming back to my and telling me the story of my life I remember as a child my mom taking me to the priest because I was always having supernatural experiences and she thought that someone put a spell on me that kept me ill. I also remember her taking me to psychics and santheros and they told my mom to take me out of the room because my light was too bright and they couldn't practice in front of me. I remember visiting in the Bronx New York with my friend Teresa and during her rituals I saw all kinds of things elevate and move and everybody getting freaked out and I was just thinking it was hilarious and naive of any Spirit or human would even expect to scare or affect the person who has chosen and protected by God and his angels. I've always been protected my God you have always loved me and saved me from all even though I wasn't loving you back you still had mine you were so faithful to me to the destiny you created for me and I appreciate it now I realize a lot of things when I tried to attend the church I won't say the name, the amount of spiritual attacks increased I would be attending a woman's group and have to leave because the spirits would show up at my home and bother my children and showing up in the mirrors in their rooms and I out of anger would come home and mark the spirits telling them that they were cowards picking a little kids to get out of my house it was so bad that my kids know a spirit lived in my closet and I know too and then secret by myself and in my room I would provoke the spirit if you chose to live in my room that he will have to deal with me but he was not going to control nor put fear in my heart back in the days before my Christ days I used to tell those spirits f**k you, punk you, you cannot take over me nor my mind and since you choose to place yourself in the darkness of my room and scare my kids since you couldn't get to me screw you get the f**k out punk coward bi**h. I was so defiant and rude now I understand why ever since then my attacks have always been attacking my family to get to me you full enemy you prideful mutant abomination jealous of God's love for us that he even loved us even though we would fail him his love for us was given to us and also the gift of free will. wow no wonder the enemy tries so hard to steal your creation one by one the week will fall in fear when it comes to fight those heavy duty battles, father you're going to require a team of special ops and those are the elite that have had the most trials and have learned the purpose of their lives have always been in God's plans LOL I love it I understand.

sorry Father God forever feeling like I wasn't like any other girl, that I was the black sheep too rough nicknamed The rebel never feminine enough always misjudge for being different and not even caring LOL

that's because I belong to a special task force that has been in training since birth ready for the command.
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