Love is an emotion that gives us the motive to survive with a smile but what if the person who introduced you to love leaves you forever?
Isn't it heartbreaking?
In a moment you lose the most essential part of your life and then you realise how difficult it is to survive.
It's been three years now since you left and still, you exist in me. You have my heart and I still love you the way I used to when you existed.
I remember being a tiny boy who was scared of everyone and everything. I was scared of speaking or staring at someone because I used to stammer. I always wanted to speak to people around but they made fun of my looks and impressions. I was heartbroken and felt lonely even in the lot. And then one day you stepped to me and despite the fact that you were beautiful and I was awful in every manner you held my hand and gave me the reason to believe that somebody can adore me as well.
For the first time ever since I joined the school, you were the only one who spoke to me and believed me. You prepared me to converse without the fear and glance into someone's eyes with pride.
Days had wings, I soon realized that you were my life and proposed you to allow me in your life as your life partner, and you said yes. Our love story was a wonderful fairytale with plenties of desire, respect, admiration and belief. I felt you were mine and nothing else could have separated us from getting together except our demise.
I remember the day I got admission in the medical college, you were happy and you stood there making me believe that I can do something. You hugged me and surprisingly all my fears disappeared. I felt so perfect that day because you held me strong and made me feel loved when my parents shifted abroad.
Months soared and then one day I heard that you were suffering from cancer, this broke me again. I lost my confidence and belief for eternity. Four years of suffering was just not yours it was ours, I remember every moment of your demise. I lost you forever on the day I received my MBBS degree. I got my mission on the cost of giving up my entire existence. I never wished that.
It was difficult for me to see you departing every bit by bit.
My soul was ripped my love, I wished to clench you and cry out the enormous sufferings I carried all the way in my heart. But you didn't want me to cry.
Why did you become so selfish?
Why did you endure all the pain that was decided to divide into two?
Why did you leave me alone in this cruel world?
Will you ever return back to answer the questions I deserve to know?
To explain to me the reason for your selfishness.





© Anjali