I cant help but feel angry for motivating myself to work through pain... I've done it my whole life neglecting my body emotionally and physically and telling myself just to push through until my body gave up on me.... i realize now that i should have voiced it when things were going wrong...i have a tendency to put others first and when i started to sense myself fading i should have took time for myself and put me first for once...Depression has plagued me for years and pulled me down deeper waters still...followed by my back injury and pain its been crippling....to reminisce on times of greater energy, stamina, overall health to what i am today it makes me wonder wtf happened....to put it in...