there was once a girl and guy I knew as jessie and Amanda, they were really good friends of mine we talked of spaceships aliens and political corruption, one day they seemed to start arguing and meeting me on my way back from work at big lots they were arguing more than usual. walking to target amanda took me aside after jessie had stormed off from an argument between them I was trying to quell. amanda had informed me that she was at wits end for the way she was being treated. as we got to my house. house I was renting close to my buddy tyshons house tensions only seemed to highten. it got to the point i had to separate them. Amanda wanted to go home and not be with jessie anymore so I offered her a place to stay for the night till she got a ride the the next morning from family i know i had just destroyed jessies heart for even thought they fought he loved her like no other and i had just lost 2 good friends who would probably never see each other again now given the chance to be free. Amanda went to phoenix and jessie stayed miserable and probably hating me. a coulple years later im not sure the exact date I saw jessie again and he greated me as if he had no reflection of the pain i had caused him. knowing I shouldve apologized i continued on with our greating till he finally came out and forgave me for what I had done. even though I got his forgiveness, i feel that same karma has brought me back full circle. being a wedge between two soulful lovers. though I can not change the past though i could fix my wrong by doing things differently. how I decieved myself for not long after i did the same to my best friend tyler and his girl Jessica, who were middle school sweethearts. I tyler seemed to have moved on with his life forgetting the four brothers code we had. and maybe its was my subconscious lashing out but he and his girl broke up and she had contacted me wanting to hand out. we began talking not knowing it would unravel the way it did. and since then tyler has cursed my name i, his just for breaking the bro code. is was wrong to do so and now it only plagues my future, me loving and my love loving my friends.
© 'illah