I remember the day we first made love. It was so special and intimate. I walked over to your house and went up the stairs to your room and I'll never forget you lying there on your bed, just fully awake and fully clothed. Barry White's I'm Gonna Love You Just A Little More Baby led us to take our clothes off. I kissed all over your neck, while you moaned so passionately. Then we kissed and the way you kissed me was so sexy....I couldn't help but wanted to lose control. I caressed you gently while I sucked your beasts and sucked your private parts so majestically. You moaned and moaned while I fingered you. With each song passing by and with each minute fading away, you sucked my dick with tender, love and care...I nearly came. The way you sucked me was so divine and so righteous that I couldn't help but be amazed by your skills. I put on a Trojan condom on and lube and I fucked you so good that I didn't want the sex to stop. You didn't even want the sex to stop. Madonna's Like A Virgin was the song that changed everything because as soon as the song started, I heard the downstairs door open and footsteps and we stopped having sex. We put out clothes back on quickly and talked. You opened up to me and talked about your sexuality and then I opened up to you and talked about my sexuality and the fact that you never judged me is something I won't ever forget. It was beautiful making love to you, but yet it was also traumatic because I felt that I betrayed God. Growing up Christian, I was taught that fornication was a sin and I struggled with that for years. But making love to you was the best thing that's ever happened to me. When we made love, I felt safe with you. I felt that you took care of me in ways that no one else could. I gave you my heart and soul and in return, you gave me every part of you. Thank you for trusting me with your body. Thank you for loving me enough to make something so beautiful and magical. The thing about making love is that it can be spiritual, religious and very fun. When we were together, I felt connected to you in a way I never felt connected with anyone else. You had my heart, my mind and my soul. I wanted to have more of you that day. I will never forget that day. I also felt guilty for years because I felt that I betrayed God. Sex before marriage is a sin as I was led to believe and so I remember drinking a lot of tequila and margaritas to escape the trauma. That day was beautiful, but also traumatic for me and I'm learning to forgive myself. I thank you for trusting me enough to make love and I hope that you know that we had a connection that only the two of us had. We're not together anymore and I wish you well with your life, but I thank you for allowing me to be me.







© Josiah Bhola Hillaire