I was once told,that if I was never been born,their life must be so much easy.

Well,Its not like I wrote a letter to God that I am getting bored in the skies so please send me to this shitty Earth.No,I would never do such a lame thing.
Listening that I am making life of other people difficult was the worst feeling I've ever felt ,second was always being having one sided feelings.

I was being told that if I would have never taken a step into their lives,there should be less problems,less tensions and less of everything that is bad.
Quite interesting, for I never decided on my own to be in their lives.

I wonder,if I never existed,how this world would look like ?
Would it be a little more brighter,happier ? or would it be less darker ?
Maybe,I went to a wrong Universe while taking a turn or was it some fault in my stars ?
I would never know how much of a difference my absence would have made but at least,people would have easier lives to live in my absence,and thats what I really want,truly,for everyone to be happy no matter how much I have to give up of myself.


A part of me wish to die,a part of me want to live more, explore more and wants to know how it feels like to hold your hand.

A part of me can't stand a single human on this Earth,a part of me wants to meet more people,try to help them with their problems.

A part of me is tired,broken,damaged to the core,a part of me is excited, glimmering and glistening for a new chapter.

A part of me is afraid to let go,a part of me don't want to hold on to unnecessary feelings and people.

A part of me wish I was never born,a part of me is so glad that I was able to met you in this life.

~Sakura Sakka
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