A new school,
A new start .....she was happy.

But she didn't saw the storm coming,
she was so happy when she got the badge.
she became the member of the supreme council of her school,
She was so happy but she didn't knew
the people she thought of her friends envyed her the most.
suddenly everything changed,
she couldn't understand why?
What has she ever done for getting so much hate?
She only had one friend left by
and she as well went to another City.

Broken and Lifeless
She felt like there's nobody
2 years went by everything she ever did was to cry,
As she faced racism,body shaming and everyday criticism
They told her she was talentless.

They told her that she has got everything just because her mother was teacher.
and she being a dumbo believe that
As if her mother used to go to write her exam papers.

she felt uncomfortable in her own skin in her own body.
as the body shaming increase
She started to hate herself to the core.

2 years passed by ......class 9
she met another Angel at least that's
what she thought of her
But Angel was actually the darkest demon who would make her life the most miserable.
she thought of her as a best friend, a soulmate and all she did was to take advantage of her.

and when her work was done she started to hate her.
like it was her falt that she couldn't make it to the council.

One more year passed by and haters increased

she became lifeless, deprived with full of hate and guilt of things she couldn't even control.

Left with no friends crying everyday at 2:30 a.m. in her balcony.
Was all she did and all she remembers from her past years.
{ No good memories!! }

The High School
It hurted even more evryone became toxic.

The cute sweet girl that she used to be turned into a lifeless one.

still she was bold enough to fight everyone,
and still she is fighting.

she has no true friends left but you know what
"it's better to have nobody then to have people who backstab you."

now please stop telling me that my life is easy and my life has no pain just because I am a teenager.
you don't know how bad was my life
And what I face everyday.

when those girl used to bully me,
Make fun of me
And body shamed me
Nobody was there.
I felt like everyday of my school was a battle for me.
why weren't you people there.
and things still continue but no blames them so why me?

oh, you don't see the physical bully?
but what about the mental health?!

Yes I write dark quotes!
Yes I love the darkness.
because my life has been like that.

Stop judging me.
Stop telling me how to live my Life.
because I want to live it this way far away from the cruel world.

Living like a stray.
alone in the dark room during festivals.
not going near people because I think I will get hate.
Let me live it this way.
it's okay let me be me.

you treated me with the worst Hell.
so,you don't have the right to treat me well.
Dear future me,

if you somehow managed to survived and then also you are feeling low just remember you used to be a small girl who fought the whole world all alone.
You're the strongest!!
don't let them push you down anymore.

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© Azrael 💜