I now know, falling in love with you was the easiest thing to do as I am feeling this sharp pain, as if a bee is stinging me a million times a minute, when I am trying to Forget you. It all just feels like a dream when I used to hold your hand and walk miles and got relaxed, when i could look into your eyes and be rejuvenated.. Just your smile could take my pain away. Now whatever I do i am not uplifted. Every dose of love that boosted my dopamine is drained and the cold look in the eyes, in which I wanted to fill my love, pulled me so hard that I could never raise.. I don't know whether i can be the girl that loved you like crazy. I don't know whether i will ever be happy like I used to. The way you showed love by doing small things that could have gone unnoticed, i noticed.. I thought u loved me. What happened to that boy i fell in love with? Only if i had a time machine to go back.. I would not make you fall in love with me.. I would want to stop me from loving you .. I want to unsee you on the day i saw you for the first time.. While I do, i want to remember the present so that I don't fall in love with the same person for the second time..