|| 4:10am ||
|| 27th January 2024 ||


It's about to be a month into 2024...And I can sense that this year won't be as smooth as 2023... This year is going to be like a roller coaster ride.!!
I don't know why there's this strange fear every night... Can't seem to feel happy..!! And I'm constantly worried about what the next step should be or how to proceed... Whenever I go to bed, my mind keeps running with thoughts about what to do next, what target to achieve.. aisa lagta hai ki.. kya kuch jo skta..and all..!!
Also there's a storm brewing inside m.. But this time, I'm able to identify what this storm is about...I feel scared especially when it comes to my family..!! I can't bear the thought of my parents growing old... There's a fear of some emergency happening and how I'll manage everything alone... Secondly there's the looming responsibility of my sister's wedding to consider.!!
I know everything will be manageable..so I shouldn't overthink about such matters.!! islye Just to console myself..I am here scribbling.!! I know I am strong..I can do a lot if I want to...I can stand up for everything.!!

Now..at this phase of my life..I'm beginning to feel a sense of responsibilities..ab lagta vo God se connection maintain karna kyn zaruri hota..
I stopped praying/believing in God completely after my heartbreak a few years ago because I had asked so much from God for him...But all of that remained just a dream..!!
I have seen that person moving away from me bht kareeb aakr.. My past life has been a traumatizing experience...I admit my mistakes...