September 21st

I just wiped my tears, Last burst of today's tears I guess. blew the nose clean washed my face and went to bed as it was already a new day but night which was meant to sleep.
that simple thing gave me such a trauma and now was the turn to overthink. i forgot when I spent the last night without overthinking it was almost a part of my routine now.

what would happen if I have similar fate, to those whom I've read...
( the person here just read a traumatic story and was crying bucket loads of tears out )
what if the person I love the most get's a true trauma after I maybe become disloyal or die?
am I not so fragile that I cry upon things that never happened? just thinking, reading and imagining it all makes me cry till I...