"I thought... You loved me.." I trailed out shocked at the scene before me, there it was.... My girlfriend, Millie... Kissing a guy..

"Heh I was never a lesbian, I was just there to play with your feelings and only here for your money." She spat out as she continued kissing the guy.

'And since when did I mention that I was a lesbian...'

I thought but froze at what she had just said as uncontrollable tears begin flowing down my cheek.

*Crack*

Another cracking sound echoed, resounding throughout my head as it begin muttering to me eventually increasing in its volume louder each time.

'Worthless..'

'Pathetic.'

'I knew it wouldn't last!'

'Stupid lesbian!'

'See you weren't good for her so she became straight hah!!'

'Maybe killing yourself is a better option!'

It roared out violently by now and I whimpered slightly beneath my breath, covering my ears as it taunted me.

"I- I..." I felt my entire body going cold and numb as I watch her kiss him. The guy however was shocked at what Millie had just said and forced her off, screaming at her.

"That is so disgusting! How could you play her like that!" He exclaimed with a disgusted look, before he sent me a look of pity and sympathy.

'Pity... I don't need pity.. Just stop it.. Don't look at me like that.' I thought to myself mutely as the words wouldn't come out of my mouth.

"I'm so sorry.. If I had known.." He trailed off, I watched as he raised his hand and a quick flashback incurred.. My hands immediately went up in self defense mode to block any attack.

Flinching from my sudden defensive movement, he awkwardly let his hand down by his side, "Sorry.." He trailed off before leaving quickly.

"You-! You whore! Just because you couldn't bear the thought of me not liking you! You made my boyfriend leave me by pretending to be pathetic just to gain sympathy!" Millie exclaimed loudly, drawing some passerbys attention who would just stare at me in disapproval and... Another familiar look.. Disgust.

"Millie..." I forced myself to say her name, hating how she was trying to make it all about *her* again..

"Just stop! Your bipolar ass and disgusting fake depression disgusts me!" She roared out angrily, pushing me away as she stomped off.

I laid on the floor, unable to believe what she said.. All those were sensitive information that I had told her..

"Fake depression...?" "Heh a slut is always a slut." "Whore." "Bitch" "Hoe" I heard the passerby whispered amongst themselves.

My mouth went agape as I began choking on the air, trembling uncontrollably as I gasped for air aloud.

Sweating non stop as I heard their laughter's and scoffs directed towards at me.

'Stop... DON'T LOOK AT ME!' I tried to exclaim out as I began to cover my face and brought my knee to my face, still choking from the lack of air.

"Don't... Please stop... Please don't look at me!" I exclaimed as I heard snaps, loud flashes and their laughter.

'I... Why do I exist.. Why god..'

'Hah... Why don't you just die?' It snorted out.

'The pain will than stop ya know..' It whispered to me all so soothingly.

'I-...'

Unable to refute it's words I kept silent, 'It will all be gone... You won't feel this *ever* again.' It hissed into my ears as I flinched.

'It knew what it was doing... And it is getting to me..'

'It knows what kind of impact it has on me.. Maybe... Just maybe... I should trust this- NO-! It is just there to see me suffer..'

'Come on... You know that isn't true~ I care for you so *dearly*.'

_Don't do it..._ I hear a faint voice say out in my head.

I was about to reply when I gasped out one last time before I fainted... Still hearing the crowd murmur that I am faking my illness and what not..

• • •

"My poor child... Your entire lifetimes were also very unlucky... But not like what you had been through right now." I heard a faint voice whisper into my ears.

"...Why.. Why do you continue to make me suffer.. I did everything I could... Just to.. Survive." I murmured out weakly as a tear trickled out of my eye.

"... Fate... We gods cannot intercept fate itself.. However.. This shall be the only exception..." The voice lightly spoke.

"Just end me already... I'm not your plaything." I replied resolutely, "I chose you because I want you.. To live your life to the fullest without.. Pain nor suffering.. Just complete bliss." The voice responded, trailing off slightly.

"Heh... That sounds like bullshit." I couldn't help but snort at its words, normally one would be afraid of the unknown or any weird random unknown voice speaking to you but..

Once you've accepted death... You'll happen to learn to care about absolutely nothing at all... Because it is all so meaningless to you..

"Ignorance is bliss.. Have you heard of that?" The voice asked.

"Yeah... But ignorance is not bliss.. Ignorance is brutal.." I shot back bluntly.

"W-what?" It questioned me, not expecting me to say that. I paid no heed to their words and continued, "The...