I always thought I had a good heart, I tried to treat others the way that I'd wanted to be treated, but it seems like that no matter how good you are to some people they just can't see what they have in front of them, that is til it's to late, and then sometimes they still don't see. I have been thru the worst pain ever and never wanted to experience that pain again, and I have to say here I am today and my eyes are filled with endless tears that continue to fall and my heart carries this pain that I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy, the sick empty feeling deep in the pit of my stomach is just that, and I say to myself, here we go again, asking myself how I'll ever make it thru this pain, I try to get thru to you and make you see, but all my attempts are shut down by your claims to justified your actions that carry lack of respect for our relationship, actions that are FACTS FROM THE HEART, not words off the internet that you base your arguments on. I'm not saying what you go thru isn't what you say and I'm sorry if my actions have caused you any pain and I'm sorry for all the times of disappointment and times I made you feel alone or may have left you all alone, God knows I never would do any of these things intentionally,nor would I cause or bring harm to your mental well being, it truly kills me thinking you really think this. Yeah I believe GASLIGHTING is real and stories on the internet are true, but it's somebody's story and that story isn't words about me doing it to you. Where did we start hating one another this way, cause for me I can't recall that day. Now I sit here on the verge of giving up and facing my fear of losing us and not knowing what really made you lose all faith and hope in me, in us. Something has to give.