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LIFE IS A JOURNEY
To be a fearless soldier needs certain circumstances in order to be initiated. Where you will be humbled, moulded and trained on how to put on the armor in order to defeat the warfare. And in life is exactly as that, you can never grow to a certain level if trials and tribulations don't come along and it comes at different stages in our lives.
Fortunately to me that stage came a little bit earlier. I had no choice but to grab the opportunity with both hands all the way to the winning line. Guess what, life happened and throw motherhood on my face. I had to learn to mother someone while I still needed to mothered myself. When fate decided to throw punches on my jaws, I learned to nurse and nurture someone else scars even when mine was still bleeding. The lullaby that was meant for me I sang for her with that tiny voice until she fell asleep. The bed time story the mother had to pick for her, I picked and read for her till she found a reason to believe in fairytales. Just like the heart carries the issues of life, hers was in the safest place. And I loved her the sweetest as if she stayed in my womb for whole 9 months.
I was forced to grow quickly but the time to complain was way too limited. I was forced to jump some of my childhood stages because I had to take care, to love the most, to cherish the most and to cheer the loudest. You might be asking yourself that "Where was the mama? What was she doing?" Mama was there but their brother needed her more than they did, still no choice. In the middle of the night when his heart failed to function, I took the palm of my hand and placed it where his heart was beating so fast and say "It's going to be alright" while mama was dialing 911 on the other hand. Days would pass without her seeing us even though her heart was in 2 places at the same time but him on the hospital bed needed her more.
In a blink of an eye I could calm my brother down, just a touch of a soul I took care of my younger sister the best and by just smile I assured mama that I was not afraid of the role I was expected to fill. I learned that fear only exist in the imagination of a person when she let her mind dwell on it, not in real life. The moment you allow the brain to master that the word "fear" doesn't belong in its vocabulary, you begin to embark on the journey you have never pictured yourself on. And if today I could be offered a choice to a different path, I will still choose that one because it taught me independence, love, patient and above it all, I LEARNED THE MASTER SKILL OF BEING A MARVELOUS MOTHER.
© HOPE.N❤️
Fortunately to me that stage came a little bit earlier. I had no choice but to grab the opportunity with both hands all the way to the winning line. Guess what, life happened and throw motherhood on my face. I had to learn to mother someone while I still needed to mothered myself. When fate decided to throw punches on my jaws, I learned to nurse and nurture someone else scars even when mine was still bleeding. The lullaby that was meant for me I sang for her with that tiny voice until she fell asleep. The bed time story the mother had to pick for her, I picked and read for her till she found a reason to believe in fairytales. Just like the heart carries the issues of life, hers was in the safest place. And I loved her the sweetest as if she stayed in my womb for whole 9 months.
I was forced to grow quickly but the time to complain was way too limited. I was forced to jump some of my childhood stages because I had to take care, to love the most, to cherish the most and to cheer the loudest. You might be asking yourself that "Where was the mama? What was she doing?" Mama was there but their brother needed her more than they did, still no choice. In the middle of the night when his heart failed to function, I took the palm of my hand and placed it where his heart was beating so fast and say "It's going to be alright" while mama was dialing 911 on the other hand. Days would pass without her seeing us even though her heart was in 2 places at the same time but him on the hospital bed needed her more.
In a blink of an eye I could calm my brother down, just a touch of a soul I took care of my younger sister the best and by just smile I assured mama that I was not afraid of the role I was expected to fill. I learned that fear only exist in the imagination of a person when she let her mind dwell on it, not in real life. The moment you allow the brain to master that the word "fear" doesn't belong in its vocabulary, you begin to embark on the journey you have never pictured yourself on. And if today I could be offered a choice to a different path, I will still choose that one because it taught me independence, love, patient and above it all, I LEARNED THE MASTER SKILL OF BEING A MARVELOUS MOTHER.
© HOPE.N❤️
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