Yesterday something terrible happened with me. I did not realize it was that terrible in that moment. What happened is... 🥺🥺

" I was talking to my friends, suddenly a guy in my class😭 came towards me and stood opposite at a distance of one hand and suddenly shouted "Tu idhar aa"pointing his finger beside him.

I said - why should I? tuje bat karni hai so u come. my tone was soft, I was unaware of what's going to happen.

-tuje bolana tuuuuu idhar aa😠 he raised his voice

-I again said why should I, u come if u want to talk

- he raised his voice, became aggressive, mai serious hu tu abbhi k abhi idhar aa, mai mar dunga vrna teko.

- tu muje marega? 😦

-dekh m seriously bol rha hu, tuuuu idhar aaa, mai ldka ldki m koi frk nhi krta, tuje sacchi m mar dunga m(he again raised his voice)

-Mai q aau pr, muje nahi ana

-dekh mai mar dunga tuje, m mazak nahi kr rha hu

his fellow friend came in between and gave him the bench yeah school bench on which we sit.

-the guy took it and held it against me
and said - kya kiya tune uss din k lecture m

- I asked kya kiya maine
-kya kiyaa kya tune?
- maine kya kiya?
-Tu q hamesha apni manmani chalati hai?
-what are u trying to say
-he raised his voice and looked at me aggressively, I couldn't understand
- it was matter of shifting lectures, according to him by shifting lectures without asking anyone was wrong? initially I did not get his point and tried to explain myself.
-while I was talking he kept interrupting me, and when I didn't stop he held my both hands from wrist and crossed them.
- I shockingly said, hath chod
-he didn't I asked again hath chod tu.
-he didn't listen
-when others in my class asked him to leave then he left my hand.
-and before going said, isse bat krke mtlb hi nhi chod. went out of class angrily.

- I was not able to understand what's happening, then his friend explained the matter to me that how it was my fault about shifting lectures without asking others.

- I got her point.
- I needed to talk to him and understand the matter.
- he was near water cooler, I asked him what's matter, he explained, I understood and I tried to put my point in front of him.
- I asked him not to be aggressive and he said aggressive to maii hua hi ni, hota to tere liye bht bura hota.
-I took it lightly, and said no no I wouldn't want that.

-I felt like I handled the matter well. and was ok while I was in college.

- but after coming home I felt restless, breatheless and not ok.
- I tried to move on from that incident. kept myself saying everything was gone and is ok, be calm.
-but I couldn't calm the whole day, I didn't know why.

- I thought it's just taking time to go away. and I will be ok in a while but I was not. 😟


_ at night I realized why?

"that guy thought he could talk to me in that raised voice, aggressive face and also can hold my wrists. he did all this and I couldn't make him understand even if someone is wrong, no one has right to talk to any person be it a girl, boy or anyone the way he talked to me. it's emotionally traumatizing. we are all adults, if we have some problem we need to community with each other calmly. not with such animalistic instincts. I failed to make him realize that. it means he will again talk to someone in that way, and this toxic cycle will continue "


I decided to communicate with him calmly and make him understand no matter whatever situation there is, you have no right to talk to someone in the manner u talked to me yesterday. No matter what I respect myself, and I owe it to me to make others realize they can't just hold my wrists and raise their voice at me.


What will you do if something similar happens to uh?




© drowning angel