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Lost in love
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Was there a point in your life that you wanted to stop, quit, and leave everything behind just to disappear to the point of changing and hiding your identity?
5 years ago I was in a hurricane of what I thought was true love and happy ever after. At first it was every girls dream to find there prince charming and leave together forever just like in the movies. The first year was a joy ride. He was perfect for me. Second and third year took a stroll. He was the complete opposite of me. But then wedding bells were on the list.
My prince charming eventually shift mode from the perfect prince to a controll freak. It's normal probably I thought. Things were a little complicated. He was not the guy I fell in love with. About 2 weeks before we walk down the aisle of my dreams. He left me for another women whom hes been seeing in-between the course of our relationship. I was left in an awful broken heart. It took me a while to get back on up. I was angry, ashamed, hurt, lost confused and ugly.
From being a happy wappy soul to depressed. The pain was out number. I hate everyone and lost especially myself. Alcohol became my medicine. A few bottles and more will make me cry to sleep. It was 3 and half wasted months that I beat up myself to all my faults and all my flaws and all my scars physically and spiritually. During that face I was never seen at the usual family get together and my friends as well. I was ashamed to be talked at as the bride to be that was left 2 weeks before the wedding.
My identity was apart of it. I cut my hair, new make over and continue to be hidden from the public. Yet my make over may have changed a few things but did not change the fact that pieces of my heart was scattered everywhere. Alot of times I was so close in ending my life. As days pass by I was only beating myself up while he's happy the best time of his life with someone else.
My dreams were vanish and the prince charming story is nothing but act on alot of movies. My reality got me a prince harm whom took my heart and place it to the bottom of the world. My family and loved one were there but nothing they say will make me feel okay. That period of time I have probably cried out all the tears that I have in me.
Until one day. I ran out of tears to cried, 3 and half months later. I regain the courage to pick myself up and start all over again. It was hard but I did it. I started a fresh new season of my life a beautiful version that noone ever see. The strongest version of me fearless and visious to the extreme. The end of prince charming and a new beginning if I'll ever meet my Shrek.
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Was there a point in your life that you wanted to stop, quit, and leave everything behind just to disappear to the point of changing and hiding your identity?
5 years ago I was in a hurricane of what I thought was true love and happy ever after. At first it was every girls dream to find there prince charming and leave together forever just like in the movies. The first year was a joy ride. He was perfect for me. Second and third year took a stroll. He was the complete opposite of me. But then wedding bells were on the list.
My prince charming eventually shift mode from the perfect prince to a controll freak. It's normal probably I thought. Things were a little complicated. He was not the guy I fell in love with. About 2 weeks before we walk down the aisle of my dreams. He left me for another women whom hes been seeing in-between the course of our relationship. I was left in an awful broken heart. It took me a while to get back on up. I was angry, ashamed, hurt, lost confused and ugly.
From being a happy wappy soul to depressed. The pain was out number. I hate everyone and lost especially myself. Alcohol became my medicine. A few bottles and more will make me cry to sleep. It was 3 and half wasted months that I beat up myself to all my faults and all my flaws and all my scars physically and spiritually. During that face I was never seen at the usual family get together and my friends as well. I was ashamed to be talked at as the bride to be that was left 2 weeks before the wedding.
My identity was apart of it. I cut my hair, new make over and continue to be hidden from the public. Yet my make over may have changed a few things but did not change the fact that pieces of my heart was scattered everywhere. Alot of times I was so close in ending my life. As days pass by I was only beating myself up while he's happy the best time of his life with someone else.
My dreams were vanish and the prince charming story is nothing but act on alot of movies. My reality got me a prince harm whom took my heart and place it to the bottom of the world. My family and loved one were there but nothing they say will make me feel okay. That period of time I have probably cried out all the tears that I have in me.
Until one day. I ran out of tears to cried, 3 and half months later. I regain the courage to pick myself up and start all over again. It was hard but I did it. I started a fresh new season of my life a beautiful version that noone ever see. The strongest version of me fearless and visious to the extreme. The end of prince charming and a new beginning if I'll ever meet my Shrek.
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