My feelings are complicated i don't know how my emotions are controlled by something inside me, i think i may lost my thoughts
i was already pushed away by people but my interest wasn't moved a little bit
I search for pleasure but i stuck into a addictive behavior my mind is fully prepared to enjoy but i feel numb
I'm not a narcissist but my actions portrait it
I'm have done nothing but people doesn't like me
I'm done with "believe in yourself," "chase your dreams," "don't waste time"
I don't need a career right now i don't need a personality development i don't need a good talk
All i need is a person who can care about me and understands me i can't find that in this world
I talk to God pray to God about my situational adaptation I'm not chameleon I'm just carried out by the fear
I just avoid the problem so it can pass away from me i don't regret the things but the things i do effect me in an embarrassing way every step i take makes me worthy from the lower step i took
I compete myself to carry out my mistakes from me i don't compare because i know my worth because of God





















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