I thought about the things I wanted to say to him for a long time, but I always get nervous. The way he would walk into the room and own the room with his sexiness and his maturity leaves a strong impression on me. Six feet tall, muscular and good looking and yet he would always treat me with kindness. He just makes me feel so good about myself and I've noticed that my love for his changed within the last three years. At first, it was a harmless crush, but the crush turned into a deep attraction that I hid. I hid my feelings for him because he had a girlfriend during this time and I didn't want to make things awkward between us. But after a while, I became depressed and distant. Little did I know that he and his girlfriend would breakup and that he and I would somehow get closer and closer. I've known him for almost ten years and I always saw him as a friend, but like I said; within the last three years, I started developing my feelings for him. Even after he and his ex girlfriend broke up, I didn't want to complicate things with my feelings and so I put myself in activities to keep my mind off of him. But by me doing that, it made me think about him and so much more. After a while, he started to pick up on my vibes and tried to play it cool. He always owned the room when he's around and it's his presence that always impressed me. The women wanted him and the men wanted to be him, but I wanted him all to myself. I wanted his hugs, his kisses and so much more. I jotted down the things I wanted to say to him and every time I tried to talk with him about my feelings, I would stutter and or I would freeze awkwardly. The nerves would get to me and it almost put an end to our friendship. To make things right, he invited me over to his place to have dinner. At first, I declined, but he held my hand and kissed me on the cheek and I couldn't deny him after that. So, I went over to his place and his place is beautiful. Huge, clean and a beautiful space with a lot of artwork around his living room and kitchen area, he came in with a black T shirt and black jeans. We sat on his couch and just talked. We talked and talked for the next few hours and then our hands touched. He looked at me and I looked at him. I pulled away, but he pulled me closer to him and smiled at me. I looked at him and smiled back. A part of me wanted him to hold me and kiss me right then and there, but another part of me wanted to save the friendship and just leave. He held my hand and opened up to me. He told me about his feelings about me. It turns out that he also had an attraction towards me, but didn't know how to tell me. When I heard that, I let my guard down and opened up. It felt so good to let it all out. By me telling him about my feelings about him, he blushed for a minute and kissed my hand. We ended up sharing a dance to some old school disco music. I placed my head on his muscular shoulders and allowed him to take control. When the night was over, he gave me a kiss that seemed like a lifetime and I didn't want it to end. The way he kissed me was so perfect, that I just froze. We ended up making sweet love that night with me fucking him. Ever since then, we've been together. I didn't know that we would end up dating and eventually end up getting married. He's my best friend and my love and I still love him today like I did back then. I sometimes get nervous when I talk about this because he has such a presence and I just am impressed with him. I'm so lucky to have this man in my life. Even now, my heart would beat for him and our love is so intertwined with one another, that you can't break us. We were kids when we first met and now we're grown men who are in love and living our best lives. He brings me nothing but love and affection to my life and I bring support and understanding to his life. I love this man with my heart and my soul and I mean that.




© Josiah Bhola Hillaire