I completely changed from there ,too much of unwanted thoughts taked its place in my mind .Days were now much harder to move on ,i don't have anything more to hope for in my life , everything ... every thing was lost ,he was my better half ,and losing him was the nightmare i never thought of ,since everything happened suddenly i just couldn't get out of that easily. My appa amma everyone was waiting for me to come back to my life in which i smiled from my heart. My parents tried their best i was also trying to forget everything ,all these years my parents tried everything to make me happy ,i also tried but everytime i see things it all has a part of his memories overloaded .
Now I am 25 working in a company and my parents were starting a discussion about my marriage .I tried my best saying i don't want to get married they never listened he was just a friend to me but at some point i started loving him , he was tge only person i ever loved in my life ,i was not sure that an anoo relationship would work in my case ,i was not sure i can see someone else where i saw him . Each and every day appa was getting more nervous about me and i finally agreed to make a profile in a matrimony. Too many prosals were coming appa was busy attending all the calls even i met and talked with some boys as a part of all this.
I was facing some problem in my office our MD was behaving so harsh on me and i also bursted and shouted at him and as usal i was fired .But i soon got a another job and i was satisfied with that eventhough i never talked with anybody over there. I met him from there a guy who is always energy packed talked with everyone and was friendly too , he even talked with me but i was silent to whatever he asked me still he smiled and said takecare when i was leaving the office. He tried to talk with me eveyday even i was also happy with that.
One day i was just looking through our old pics this guy came and sat beside me asked me whether its my boyfriend or what and i said. " Yes, he was mine " he looked into my eyes. " he was?? so is that a breakup ". i smiled " no , he is no more in this world with me. " i took my bag , he was feeling so sad that he asked me a question for that answe " don't worry about that iam ok". he just smiled i said. " see you tomorrow" waved and left .
Next day met came again to talk with me sat for a long time said about this and that just to make me feel comfortable with him and yes , atleast he is not a stranger to me now . He once invite me to a join him for a coffee and i did , days passed, ge was the only best friend i even he had an affair
said about her and i shared everything thing with him everything about the old pictures he saw on that day . He talked as if everything is so simple to him he was the only person who helped me to recover and to smile and to behave without anger to everyone .

That evening was rainy and we both was in a cafe having coffee listing to music and watching the eain that swiped down through the glass infront of us ,that day he proposed me ,said that he love me and is ready to talk with my parents if everything is ok to me,I was not sure ,i was not sure what to say to him ,i was in a confusion that whether i would never find a friend like him
i didn't wanted to lose him ,he was the only perion who gave a new life i said i like him but not interested in marriage he asked me again the same question he did before i don't have a proper answer for that and eventhough i rejected it at that time ,he is now my husband
everything in my life was turning normal and i was satisfied.


© kalyani