I know what I want ,I understand my necessities and that is all I ever worked on.But now that I can see the goal post in the horizon I don't seem to know which direction to kick my ball in the pitch seems awfully foggy I can see the metal post frames but the path is hidden away. I also feel like turning away and leaving my ball in the pitch as a memory of my presence because I'm running low on strength and positivity i don't know who can help me or how I can be helped ,but with regards to my perspective I trust that the sun will shine again but it's a dream that constantly seems far off . I'm sorry that I lie to you because all the times that we've interacted I had my mask on and I'm too scared to reveal what lies beneath it because you will run away. And even if you may not like me your presence warms my heart it's a feeling that only the loneliest person can relate to. I'm not alright I've never been but I was content and now the pain has been double dosed with the loss of a best friend it's something I never expected to deal with I can't handle this much pain I'm taking the easy way out I'm tired !