Hello my name is Steve im writing this story to look back on my life and share with you things that I have experienced. There are times in our lives things happen we just don't understand and possibly never will. I personally have been fighting the demons in my mind body and soul with the love of God. I'm not saying I'm perfect im not saying I'm good im not trying to tell anyone how to travel there path of life. I have had ups and downs all through my life and im still just trying to live one day at a time with the pure faith that God loves me. I beleive God has put me here on earth to lead people to the love he wants to share with all humanity. im no one special im just a normal guy that wants everyone to know that without God's love I may not be here right now. I have done things im not proud of or that I condone. im not asking for sympathy or help of any kind. I just want people to feel the love that surrounds me everyday in this crazy thing we call life. im not a preacher. I wear my heart on my sleeve, im completely determined to find a way to save everyones souls. God has me here to lead anyone and everyone to his love. and I know in my heart when I leave this world I will be one of God's strongest soldiers leading everyone to his salvation. in my life if I can lead one person to God's salvation then I feel im doing my job. I ask people all the time if you had one wish and only one wish what would it be? my reply is lead the entire world to God's salvation. I come to you with this not for fame or fortune. I come to you pure in heart only wanting you to be saved. I know people out there say there is no God I know people beleive that there is no heaven, I know people have no faith. anyone that has feelings like this I ask you to do one thing for me. open up your heart and in pure love and faith ask God for forgiveness and trust me you will never experience a feeling of complete love and euroaphia as you do when You except God as your all in all savior. im going to tell you what event in my life that led me to God. May 19th 2002 my mother of 55 years old was given blood pressure medication first time she ever took it and she had an allergic reaction and died from it. the last thing my mother ever said to me was DONT LET ME DIE. I live with this everyday. The day after we left the hospital I went off on my own completely lost as to why this happened. I was completely destroyed inside I wanted nothing and no one. I have had friends in my life try to lead me to God and I was a lost soul fighting the demons that controlled me. I decided to get down on my hands and knees to pray and I asked God WHY. when I went to bed that night I had a dream, my mother came to me and said THIS IS MEANT TO BE! GOD CALLED ME HOME. The craziest thing about my dream was it was the day before my mother took the medicine and I could have stopped it from happening, but her telling me this was meant to be was the closure I needed to go on with my life and make her proud of the man I have become. in my heart I truly beleive My mothers death saved my life,and now its my place to lead everyone I meet to the love God has for us. I know in my heart im a sinner I know in my heart I fall short everyday on being completely pure, but I also know in my heart I am saved I am loved and most importantly IM FORGIVEN!