Swath... I uttered.
She turned and run away...
I looked at the shocked face of Revathi and her mother.
Do you know her? Revathi's mom asked me with a smirk.
"Yes..." I uttered.
"You are.... She stopped for a second to think....
"I'm Sagen Rajput".
"Omg... Can't believe this...she choked her throat and uttered...
I chuckled... As I was too in shock.
I asked for permission..." Can I speak to her plz, where she went".

Oh... Don't run behind her... I promise you ... You will have time to talk with her ... Just give her a little bit of space!

I felt the pain of Swath... I felt to give her some space.

I was tossed...
Suchi came near to the car...
"Bhai....
"Tell me... Is that a surprise you mentioned" I asked Suchi...
"Yes, I thought to tell you that... I saw Swath...here....".
"Exactly... Here..." I repeated to make sure.
Suchitra knew about Swath as I was broken when I came back from Chennai quitting my job... And breaking up with Swath. I wanted to start fresh ...
"Yes... She came here with my Dance teacher...I didn't mention you or show that I knew her". Suchi sipped water and continued...
"I thought to tell you this... "
"Uff... Suchi, I saw her after 5 years.... Imagine... 5 years it took to see her again.... My eyes were filled up with love".
"Bhai... I thought you both must have moved on so in life"Suchi had no idea that I still missed only Swath... She taught my hookups might have changed me.
"I chucked... Uh ..moved on...
She can only run away from me... " I said as I was in some thoughts...
"Well, it's because you were the one who did break up"...
"Yes, I did... I did so she can focus on her life, make her career, I didn't want her to waste her life for me... "
"Yes... Now she is focused, beautiful, smart and a professor at the City University ...ok...well"...
Suchi said as she clipped her seat belt.
"Can you take me to my hostel...Bhai... I'm tired. "

I drove in silence. I felt the pain... I want to see Swath, hug her so tightly that I can fix everything again...

I left Suchi at her hostel.
I drove back to my hotel.
I took a shower.... Uff, the water in the shower makes me miss Swath even more!

After showering I went downstairs near the dining hall of the hotel.
After returning from my dining...
I heard some voice...
"We are extremely sorry, Mam... It will take time to fix it... As it's so late and rooms are already booked. But... Mam plz wait we will fix it"
I saw ... And went near, I stood back, the essence of jasmine touched my core of brain...
"What Happened Swath"...
She turned to me...
, "Sagen... It's none of your business".
I felt her anger...but felt good as I heard my name in her voice.
I enquired to the receptionist.
I saw the anger on her face, she looked around the hotel...ignoring me of course.
"Swath... Come here let's sit and talk while they fix the door of your room".
I tried to hold her hand. But I know my Angry girl...
The receptionist looked at me as if we both are in bad terms.

"Shut up ... There is nothing to talk about with you... I don't know you"
Swath said, fisting her hand on the table...
"Really... Nothing to talk about... I said to her pulling a chair for her..."
She felt my emotions are true... She sat on the chair making a big gap between us... That is silence.
She didn't look at me. She looked into the mobile, looked away here and there ... Ignoring me is her old idea!
I felt silence has magic...
After sometime... She got up...
She went to the receptionist... She shouted .... In her anger... I felt her displacement anger...

I grabbed her waist around her saree touching her belly button with my thumb..."Swath...Calm down I whispered, I kissed her forehead...I felt the melting anger through her breath...
I saw the receptionist in a state of confusion...
I said to her," Will you afford my room as double".
I winked at her... I still hold Swath closer to my body...

Swath gave a deadly stare...
I kissed her cheeks gently... and held her hand to follow me...
"What... Sagen.. Leave me... You just cannot do this"...
She kept her mouth uttering...
I held her hand tightly almost dragging her into the room next to the end of the lift.
As I felt we are inside my room, I grabbed her face in my palm...and kissed her ... Deep smooch on her lips till her throat... letting my eyes run with tears of so my years... Letting her heat of anger and pain through her breath...
I wrapped her waist, and her back so tightly that my chest and her boobs were pressed together....
I kissed entangled my lips so deeply inside her lips and mouth without breaking the rhythm... As I missed her in every second of these 5 years... I felt I'm alive again!

I forgot to lock the door... I was so deep in kissing her I ran my fingers at the back of her ear letting her one Jumka fall...
I felt my heart beating rising and the heat on her face...
She pushed my chest...
"Stay away Sagen..."
She screamed and cried out in pain... She pulled the bedsheet to the floor and sat on the carpet...
I sat on the ground next to her folding my legs up ... I tried to touch her close to me, to console her pain...but I couldn't as I was too in pain...
After the silence and her weeping...
She got up in anger....
I saw the door is half opened... I felt that if I utter this now, she will kill me in anger.

I silently got up...
" You want this right she unpinned her saree pin ... Even after so many years... You just want to sleep with me... You never loved me... You left me when you switched cities... You left me when I needed you... You just killed me, Sagen... And now here again...you want to have sex with me... Right... Go ahead.... On the price of loving you...I need this..." she screamed out... Her pain... Her anger...her love... So much she loves me...
I could not hold more my heart.
"Shut up Swath... I grabbed her" I held her head to rest on my chest... Her anger... her pain... Fist on my chest....I felt I need to console her more... I wrapped her around my chest firmly...
Slowly, I made her sit on the chair... I gently kissed her head...

My eyes had tears ... But who had more? We fail to find or to know!

After a few minutes... I grabbed my throat to utter...
" Swath... You need to sleep... It's late now..."
She looked at me... Her emotions of love... Her anger... Her pain... Her kajol smudged on her eyes...
I held her so tightly that I don't want to see her anger again...

I pulled her to the bedside I laid down... Letting her on my chest...
I felt my eye end had heated tears...
I felt my baby Swath laying on my chest... I felt my love is so true that I found her back...

I gently kissed her forehead...
I saw she still sobbing... But this time she held me tightly around my neck. I felt her love never run away from me... I felt our love is beyond time and years and gaps...

I smiled... and said... "Let me close the door first"
What.... She looked up ...

Before her pain speaks in her head or travels inside her heart... I sided with her and ran to lock the door.

I shut the door.... Locked in with a triple lock system...
I saw her in a puzzle... Standing in full messy... Kajol smudged... Lipstick smudged... Her hair is in a mess... a few jasmine flowers fell on the floor and bed... On one ear Jumka is missing...
I hugged her, kissing her rapidly over her face...
It felt like a dream... I smelled her neck after 5 years...
We lay in bed ... Tangled in love again...
She kissed my neck and asked me" "why you left me alone"
I kissed her forehead and said," So you become more beautiful and focused, so to happen this."
She kissed my lips and asked," How many girlfriends have you made and sexed with"
I kissed her ear removed her earring and said," Many many girls... Ok...Swath....But none can be you".I smiled looking into her eyes.
She kissed my cheek and asked," Did you even miss me?"
I kissed her eyes and said, "In every breath I took.".
She kissed my lips and asked, "Do you still love me, Sagen..."
I said," Let me show you, my love... "

I put her on the bed letting her head rest on the pillow... Sliding on her top... I kissed her deep in her lips, biting her lips a little... Our eyes were closed to feel us...
Her feet were tangled with me, I pressed my feet on her feet, we grasped, we moan, I kept my flow of kiss on her face, her lips, her mouth, her tongue...
I felt my heart beat again... I felt the air in the AC room is like a desert.

I touched her blossoms over her blouse covered with needlework of white lace, I felt to unhook them from her back... But I looked at her, her eyes were closed... I kissed her pointed nipples over her blouse.
As I kissed her stomach...
I whispered to her,
"My eyes can only halt on you, Swath..."
She was silent.
She looked into my eyes... Her eyes drained her last tear...
I hugged her laying over her, I wrapped my arms to cover her. My thighs had tightly wrapped her below...
I kissed her on her face... I put her to sleep....
I kept looking at her... Her breath... Her lip end, her lips tip, her closed eyes... Her sweat under her blouse... I saw this girl... After years... Still in love with me... Still next to me... I'm still loving her...
I couldn't sleep... Of joy... I kissed her gently so she don't get her sleep disturbed...
I saw her sleeping peacefully.
I fall asleep covering my girl, my whole world...my Freedom...my Swathantra!
© Saranya Anish Nair